Vanilla (A Daisuga FanFic)

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Sugawara's POV

As soon as I shut the door behind me, I felt the tears tracing back. I slide my back down the door and push the plate of food away. I curl up my knees and feel myself start to break down. It's cold...

My head started to hurt. I was hurting again. And it was the worst relapse I could possibly have.

Half an hour later

I feel myself slowly falling asleep. It's only 8:30 but I felt like I could just just sleep for days. With no one bothering me. Sleep...

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The next morning

5:30 am.

I open my eyes, slowly. I look at the alarm clock that read the time. I didn't feel like eating..at all. Or even seeing anybody.

I toss a loose jacket over my head and tip toe downstairs and grab my shoes, I put on my hood before exiting the house quietly. I quickly run down the street until the house was completely out of sight before slowing down to a walk. I don't know where I'm going. Or what I'm doing. I'm just...here. Alone.

Daichi's POV

I open my eyes and get that cold feeling again. Whenever he told me about that pit in the stomach, I didn't know what he meant...but I get it. It's the feeling of being alone. Cold.

"Daichi! Daichi!" My mom races through my door, which causes me to toss out of bed, "what?"

"Suga's not in his room!" I furrow my eyebrows as we both race over to the guest room. My mind went everywhere but my answer was rather...

"He probably just went on an early walk, mom." I groan, rubbing my eyes.

"Yeah, we'll just-" my mom stops mid sentence so I look over at her, looking at the floor on her side. There was a full plate of food.

"H-He's relapsing..."

"Mom we don't know for-"

"Daichi, what happened last night?"

"What do you mean?"

"What did you say to Sugawara last night?" Her question was stern.

"I- ngh...just wait a couple hours mom. Maybe he just wasn't hungry last night.." I didn't want to answer her question. Perhaps...I didn't want to answer it myself.

2 hours later

My mom gave up on him. She looked around the block, looked at every friends house, everywhere she could possibly know. But he was nowhere. We were worried...

After giving up, my mom started to work at the dining table and I was watching a movie on the couch, wrapped in a blanket to hide the coldness I felt.

As my mom and I both heard the door open we looked up. It was Suga. I laid back down, knowing he probably didn't want to talk anyway.

"Oh my goodness, Kōushi, where were you?" My mom races up to him and hugs him.

"Sorry to worry you, Sora. I was in town with an old Tokyo friend." That was lie...or maybe that's a secret he was keeping from me too...

"Oh, there's leftovers in the fridge if you're hungry."

"No, it's okay. I had breakfast and lunch with my friend. Thank you though. Uhm..I'm going to go study for a...test that's coming up."

"Of course." As soon as the footsteps on the the stairs disappear, my mom looks over at me.

"Daichi Suwamura." My full name. Uh oh.

I pause the movie and look at her, "yes?"

"What's up?"

"Is..nothing an answer?"

"Daichi." She said more sternly.

"Fine. Me and Suga got into a small argument last night." She raises an eyebrow, "....I got into a small argument with Suga last night." She sighs, "you get your pettiness from your father. Okay."

"Daichi. Go up there and say sorry."

"I-"

"Daichi."

"Fine..." this was going to be extremely awkward. I slowly make my way upstairs, not actually wanting to commit to this.

I knock on the door softly, which is immediately opened by him...he looked tired. He kind of shuts the door so the only thing I could see is his right eye.

"C-Can you open the door..?" He shakes his head, "what do you need?"

"Can we...go back to normal?"

"Was there ever a normal?" This was just questions back and forth, it wasn't leading anywhere.

"I know what I said was wrong...and I'm sorry." Suga sighs, "I think more upset at the fact that you just shouted at me for no real reason. All I did was ask what was wrong."

"I know I blew up, okay?"

"I know, Daichi...but that doesn't mean you bring up my emotional trauma and complain about it. I know I get in your way, and you know that too."

"Sugar, please just let me in." He sighs silently to himself before opening the door widely. I shut the door as I walk into the room. He refused to stand near me. He stood on the other side of the room.

"Can you at least forgive me...?"

"I was never mad at you, Daichi. I'm just stubborn."

"Don't do that..."

"Do what?" He teases,hiding a cheeky smile. I shake my head, letting out a breathy chuckle, "using my words against myself..."

"Fine. I forgive you...just...don't use my trauma to ruin your day..." I nod my head as I hug him.

"I'm sorry..."

"I know you are..."

"No, I'm really sorry.." He nods. We stand there in silence.

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Really short but it's okay. Anyways- I'm going to put song suggestions after every chapter. Basically, the song I list below is the song I listened to while writing this chapter. Soooo yeah : ) listen to them.

Hope you enjoyed today's chapter ♥️

Song- Please Never Fall in Love Again

By: Feyesel (featuring Ollie MD) (or original by Ollie MD)

Words- 975

Finished- September 30, 2020

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