LOUD AND CLEAR Mok So Ri (Yuta)

Hospital (2)

She was short breath as soon as she woke up. It seemed like a dream – a bad one. Getting her university entrance result which wasn't satisfying at all, wishing god to kill her which god really did and she really almost got killed by a car but god is generous enough to save her. God sure has a strange way of doing work.

She looked around – a typical hospital room with other beds in front of her and on her side. She wasn't going to ask the predictable question like ' Where is this?' or ' Why am I here?' because she herself knew it well the reason she's here.

A nurse suddenly walked by and came to the bed next to her. Her hands were professional as she injected some kind of liquid into the patient's vein. Compared to her condition, the patient state looked worse which makes her felt that she wasn't 'qualify' to be in this bed right now.

" Nurse, if you're not busy, may I ask you something " as polite as she could, she asked her. As the saying goes, if you don't have the brain, you should at least have the manner.

The young nurse turned to face her while smiling.

" Yes, please go ahead. What is it?."

" Do you.. by any chance knew who brought me here?."

The nurse smiled back at her.

" I'm sorry, I'm not the one who treated you. I think it's Nurse Oh. Wait here, I'll call her for you " after she said that, she lightly bowed to Sor ri which makes her bowed her head too. For a second, Mok Sor ri was mesmerized by the young nurse - such beauty with such grace and such job. Hah, she just couldn't help but to let out a sigh. 

A few hours maybe has passed but she still didn't know what she would she do in life after seeing her miserable exam result, almost getting killed by a car ( or was it a van?. She wasn't sure anymore.) and still she didn't get any inspiration about what she would do.

She looked around, everyone is hurt here and there and she looked the finest among all as if she's not hurt at all. There's no nurse coming into her direction as well.

" Arghhhhh " she almost cried. " What a pathetic life I have " and she pulled the cover over her head and his legs wouldn't stop kicking the cover.

Pathetic, huh?.

" Miss Mok, I'm sorry for the long wait." Immediately, she pulled down her cover in surprised. She smiled back at the aged nurse awkwardly. Maybe she was embarrassed as she kept on mumbling unknown things under the cover which probably makes her looked like a crazy person which should be put in mental hospital instead of here.

" Erm... I was just wondering about the person who brought me here and whether I can get out of the hospital now or not?." At least Mok Sor ri managed to sound sane.

" Ah yes. The doctor who treated you said that as soon as you wake up you are permitted from here and about the person who brought you here, I can say nothing much accept that he already paid for you hospital expenses. He also said that he was sorry that he almost hit you and he wasn't going to compensate you because you're not hurt anywhere."

" Did he leave his business card to you?. Somehow, I feel like I should contact him. Don't you think it wasn't sincere enough of him?. If he almost got me killed, shouldn't he apologize to me directly instead of relaying message like this to you?. It must have been bothering you too."

The nurse smiled uncomfortably. " Well.... he doesn't leave his business card to me and I don't mind relaying message at all."

Mok Sor ri nodded with embarrassment. Maybe, she's the only one whom felt like that?. Plus, what's wrong with this nurse. Shouldn't she side with her?. But the person who almost killed her really have the nerve not to meet her directly and apologize. What an asshat.

She felt silent and the nurse didn't say anything. As usual, the nurse composure looked calm and very hard to predict what she's thinking about while Mok Sor ri on the other hand is fidgeting, uneasy of the situation she's in.

Nervously she looked around again and licked her lips. She even cupped her face with her hands to come into senses.

" Do you want to-."

" YES PLEASE I WOULD LIKE TO GET OUT " her voice came out a little loud.

" Miss Mok, this is a hospital. Please mind your voice as your name suggest, Mok So ri " Nurse Oh said with a serious looked on her face. She even started to use Mok Sor ri named as in context of 'voice'.

" Yes, moksorri. 'Voice' that's my name " She replied and instantly quiet down.

...

It wasn't long before the nurse came back and told her that she was able to get out after a quick medical test which is really quick by the way. It didn't even last more than 5 minutes.

She looked up the sky. It was still noon when she was hit by the car but right now its already dark. As dark as he future seems to be.

Again, she came back to reality. 

The same question lingered again in her head. Probably just probably, maybe her life would get easier if she happened to be dead. But probably, just probably, god saved her because she still had some hope in her life again or maybe god just wanted to play an messed up her life a little more before kill her. She didn't know. If only she could talk to god then she would have know what god actually wanted her to do with her life.

Fuck her life.