Lovesick Chamber

01

"Happy 29th Birthday Miss Danica!!!" bati ng students ko from Block H. They were my advisory class who prepared a little surprise for me. It was simple – cakes and balloons all over the room with a few boxes of pizza, bottles of soda and enough serving of spaghetti for the class.

"Thank you my dearest Block H! I didn't know you knew about my birthday. Thank you for making it extra special. I love you guys!" a short but sweet message from me. Nakakatuwa kasi 'tong mga batang 'to... I was smiling from ear to ear.

"Let's eat! Bon Apetite!"  and everyone were all for the food. 

"You bring the cake with you Miss. It's for you man...para mashare mo rin sa ibang teachers or sa family mo." - a student said when she gave the box of cake.

I didn't know who to share it with. I wasn't close to anyone at the faculty. I don't even stay long there – I only do that during faculty meetings and seminars. I make sure to stay away as much as possible from people. I don't trust them. I don't trust anyone. But, I can't bring it at home as well. I live alone and I don't eat much sweets. I decided to leave it at the faculty lounge.

**Dear Dr. Vee. I left a box of cake at the faculty lounge refrigerator. Please feel free to share it with the teachers. – Miss Dani +0926*******

I left for home early. I live alone at a condo just a few minutes away from the university. I have my own small white mitsubishi mirage car which is very convenient for me. Independent ako. Mas gusto ko kasi na mag-isa lang. I don't want to be with toxic people.

*Phone bleep* 

**Happy Birthday Dan! I'll come see you tomorrow so please clear your sched for the night. I'll be with Don, Cams and Zeke. Huwag kang mangditch ha! – Akito +0995*******

He's one of my few close friends. Konti lang kaibigan ko na pinagkakatiwalaan ko. I don't mingle much kasi andami nang toxic sa world. Hindi naman din ako mahilig makipagkwentohan sa mga tao. I prefer silence and peace of mind. Kadalasan sa mga kaibigan ko ay lalaki. Mas mainam kasi hindi sila clingy and maingay. Andami kasing arte ng mga babae eh...normally konti lang siguro kaming hindi perwisyo sa lipunan. Cheret. Pero seriously kadalasan sa mga babaeng kilala ko eh maingay na wala sa lugar.

I received few more messages pero naligo na lang muna ako. I've been stressed sa trabaho ko especially kasi teacher ako sa isa sa mga malaking University dito sa Cebu. There's a lot of pressure lalo na kasi I am teaching Research. Sobrang stressful din.

When I came back from the shower eh I heard the ringing of my phone. May tumatawag. When I checked...si Mama pala.

"Hello, anak? I have arranged an appointment with Dr. Blanco for a therapy. Please don't be late. 6PM ang schedule. Sinadya kong early para may time ka pa makipagkita sa friends mo. Alam ko naman na magkikita kayo bukas. Happy Birthday!"

Minsan talaga demanding siya. Parang kinkontrol pa rin ang buhay ko...nanghihimasok eh kaya nga ako umalis sa bahay para wala na 'kong marinig sa kanya dahil ayaw kong makinig sa kanya.

"Eh..Ma naman eh...Ayoko nga ng ganyan!" sagot ko sa kanya.

"Wala ka nang choice. Kailangan mo rin naman 'to" angil niya...rinig na rinig ko ang inis sa boses niya.

"Ei... sa ayoko nga eh" I insisted.

"Ah basta! Makipagkita ka bukas. Ikaw na bahala kung ano ang sasabihin mo sa kanya" sabi niya sabay end ng call.

Ganyan siya lagi. Kaya nag-aaway kami lagi. Eh paano na? Wala na naman akong choice nito? Kakahiya naman sa Doctor kung maghihintay siya...eh gabi pa talaga ang schedule...Usually close na yung clinic niyan.