Fighter's for life (wonwoo)

1. The beginning

I don’t know where to start, it was just all wrong from the start. Living the life without having time to breath is sounds impossible but I know is difficult for everyone. My problems start when I didn’t know the difference between me faking my feelings and me actually showing my real feelings. In reality my life isn’t that difficult but inside of myself everything is a mess.

I will always be smiling at school because I am happy. If I was annoyed everyone would know because I would not talk and look upset. If I was sad, I didn’t show it because I didn’t know if I really was sad. I might be crying in the middle of the class, but I never found out my real reasons.

So if someone asked to open myself for them, I would be difficult for me to put the words on to something I don’t know. Sometimes things from the top will go out in a flow. I have feelings I just don’t know which one is true from time to time. Never been in love too.

At school:
Yoshi: I can’t believe that he asked you out!!!
Eunji: I had no idea he would *looks at me*
Me: congratulations, now I am the only one who doesn’t like anyone or date anyone
Kuro: you will always have me sweetie *hugs me*
Yuri: I was gone for 2 minutes and you already cheating *fake crying*
Kuro: Yuri! It’s not what you think *hugs Yuri*
Yuri: I am joking! Here, your water *passes the water to me and sits down beside me*
Me: I really need this cold water *drinks*
Yoshi: Yah! We are just sixteen, it’s like our second year
Jong-su: *hugs Yoshi form the back* she is trying to say, you have all the time in the world. There is no use for everyone to hurry and find love, when it come it comes
Me: thanks for the advice that you have told me for the past two years
Eunji: we have been friends for a while now and form the information you gave me. I actually want to ask, do you even want to be in a relationship or just fall in love?
Me: why do you guys always make me think so deep?
Eunji: because you always make us THINK too deep!!
Sung-soo: *taps on Eunji’s shoulder*
Eunji: *looks back* oh my god!
Kuro: do you want to explain who this is?
Yuri: babe, that’s the guy that asked Eunji out
Sung-soo: sorry, I am sung-soo *bows down*
Me: no need to bow down, we all the same age *bows down*
Jong-su: its nice to meet you, looks like Eunji found someone good looking
Eunji: *hits Jong-su* i am so sorry about my friends, but why-
Sung-soo: we are dating, so I thought we should get lunch together
Me: *Eunji looks at me* go! I won’t say it twice!
Eunji: I own you one! *runs with sung-soo*
Yoshi: want to join us?
Me: what would I have done without you guys *hugs Yoshi*
Kuro: more specifically its ME!
Me: *slaps Kuro’s ass* we all know!
Kuro: babe, she slapped my ass!
Yuri: I am not getting involved with your bullshit
Me: don’t you love me? *puppy eyes*
Kuro: that’s trash! You know I will forever love you! *hugs me*
Jong-so: you are our biggest love *hugs me* sorry babe, but its true.

The couples:
Kuro & Yuri
Jong-su & Yoshi
Sung-soo & Eunji
Me & my singel ass

Like you see, I have love in my life and a lot of feelings. Its just me struggling to find out sometimes if I really felt that way. I can’t say I am without love it’s more like loving me is a losing game. I know myself good enough to really know why I don’t fall in love, because love me is a losing game for everyone that wants a relationship with me. At the school someone even thought I was homosexual, but I didn’t do anything because I get why they thought that.

At home:
Mom: do you have any plans today?
Me: I don’t think so, but it looks like you have a plan
Mom: can you clean the kitchen
Sister 1: we are getting guests, that’s why I cleaned my room
Dad: do you have homework?
Me: I have some homework and projects, but its only Monday
Dad: you can clean the kitchen first and then work on them
Me: sure, I clean fast and good anyways
Mom: don’t be disrespectful towards the guests
Me. Who is it? It is someone I know?
Sister 2: I think he is older than you
Me: older?  Eighteen?
Mom: I don’t know anything properly, but something happened
Dad: I guess the news will come when they arrive
“ding-dong” the doorbell was ringing