Fighter's for life (wonwoo)

50. No choice

Y/n: *replies to her mother now* yes, we wish him all the best in life

How do I describe this feeling, its different then pain and not at all happiness? I was feeling this weird mix of losing someone but being happy for them. There is no way I was unpleased that wonwoo was going to chase his dream.

I am happy at least one of us is able to fight for their life. I wanted to work with music, but mother said medication. What would a perfect daughter do? I choose her happiness instead of mine, but why is she never pleased by my actions.

She keeps saying you are doing this for your own future, but deep down I wonder if she really knows my passion for music. Mother knows best, I wish they also knew what their kid would desire.

Wonwoo’s mother doesn’t look like mine, but yet they do the same make the kid take the choice they want even if it sounds like we did all this all on our own. Wonwoo, asked me if I was happy about him moving…how could I answer that?

I was feeling anxious and unwell since he is leaving me. I used over a year to ignore him and forget him, but now that he is going to leave I regret it all. I could have used that one year to fall for him harder and created memories for life, instead I was a kid and ignored my problems.

Kuro: Y/n? why do you look like someone died?
Y/n: I was thinking about something I regret
Changwon: what did you regret?
Y/n: I regret ignoring wonwoo for a whole year
Kuro: why do you suddenly regret that? I thought you wanted to forget him
Changwon: you really are dumb Kuro…*taps Kuro’s head*
Y/n: I don’t want to forget him…I want to be with him
Changwon: it’s not too late, he doesn’t leave until tomorrow
Wonwoo: hey Changwon, can I talk to you for a sec?
Changwon: sure *stands up and walks with Wonwoo to the balcony*
Wonwoo: sorry for taking you away from Y/n
Changwon: before you say anything I need to say something
Wonwoo: now?
Changwon: I don’t think I love Y/n anymore. I think I just liked the attention and comfort she gave me. Made me feel like I was special to someone. Now I think my whole life changed from straight to I don’t know
Wonwoo: I didn’t see that coming. You spent so much on her and thinking about her, suddenly you say to me you don’t like her… do you like someone else?
Changwon: *looks at Kuro* I don’t know, not sure at all
Wonwoo: I wanted to tell you to give this to Y/n *hands him a letter*
Changwon: what is this?
Wonwoo: I never said to Y/n that I fell for her and she is the girl I love….i am moving tomorrow. I don’t have the guts to face her now and confess. In this letter I wrote down all my feelings and I want her to read it
Changwon: I will give it to her tomorrow
Wonwoo: thanks dude, I hope you find love
Changwon: I hope you find your way back to Y/n
Wonwoo: *sighs* so do I, if she hasn’t moved on
Kuro: Changwon!! We are leaving without you!!!
Wonwoo: see you maybe some other YEAR
Changwon: she will find you before that and I will be with her then