Teared Masks (Madrigal Series #3) On-Going

TM #3

Suck

After a very long talk with Brix, which we don't always do usually, agad din naman akong nag-paalam na uuwi na because it's already 10:30 in the morning, kailangan ko nang umuwi at kumain nang lunch. I never skip my meals because I know that it's bad for my health.

Halos apat na oras kami sa loob nang 7/11, nangangawit na nga ang ang puwet ko sa upuan kanina, tsaka wala naman din kaming ibang pinag-usapan kundi ang tungkol lamang sa pagset-up ko sa kanila ni Liana ngayong Sunday.

The plan is I'll ask my bestfriend to come with me in the church to attend a mass, pagkatapos ay iiwan ko siya sa kamay ni Brix, mabait naman ang lalaking 'yon at may tiwala ako sa kaniya kahit gago at paasa siya.

I arrived at our house at exactly 11:00 AM, I just walked that's why I'm kinda exhausted. I went to my room directly without greeting Rae and Mom. Dad is always busy sa munisipyo that's why he's not always here with us.

I lazily pulled my baby blue dolphin shorts and white oversized statement shirt. I combed my shoulder length brown hair and went on my bed to rest.

I just played a cooking game on my laptop for a minute, when I got bored I just watched some vlogs on youtube to kill time. I was already half-way when I heard a soft knock on my door.

I clicked the pause button and strolled towards there with my lazy expression. Pinihit ko ang sedura at agad na napairap nang makitang si Lirae iyon. My fucking bitch step-sister that never fails to make my light mood into a dark one.

"Señora, lunch is ready. Mom's been calling you kanina pa and you're not answering. Bingi ka ba o nagbibingi-bingihan?" I stayed silent.

"Fucking spoiled."  I scoffed by her words.

The audacity describe me with that adjective, when in fact she's the one being spoiled in this mansion?

She gets what she wants with or without our parent's permission, pero ako? Kahit na humingi nang pahintulot at importante ang lakad ay bawal.

I respect my family a lot but what they're doing to me is really unfair, they made a rebel out of my self. They probably couldn't handle me now that's why they started to tighten my security, todo paniwala kasi ang tatay ko sa mga kasinungalingan na isinusumbong nang ingrata kong madrasta at kapatid kaya nagluluksa ako ngayon.

That feeling when you're inside your so called "home" to be comforted and loved but it doesn't feel like home anymore since everyone there is against you. That's just a pure bullshit.

"Don't bother to call me. I can fucking eat on my own." Natigilan siya sa sinabi ko.

"Fine! Baka kasi 'pag hindi ka inaya, magsusumbong ka na naman kay Daddy!"

She rolled her eyes and turned her back against me. Ang sarap itulak sa hagdan. Ni hindi nga kami nag-uusap ni Dad eh. Bobo nang babaeng 'yon. Uto-uto pa! Paniguradong si Mom ang nagsabi sa kaniya no'n kaya todo paniwala din ang gaga.

I sighed deeply and banged my door loudly out of irritation. I even heared her girly shriek from outside.

"Pabebe nang taon." Bulong ko at umirap.

"How's your acads Rae? I heared you'll be a representative for the upcoming Math Competition." I bitterly swallowed the food I'm chewing.

Here we are again. Hobby talaga nila ang pag-usapan ang tungkol sa grades ni Lirae kapag nasa hapag kaming lahat, ewan ko. Gusto yata nilang parati akong masaktan.

Anong bago? Sanay na din naman ako. Sanay na ako na palagi nilang pinagmumukhang bobo at walang alam sa mga bagay-bagay.

Halos mapaatras pa ako kanina mula sa hapag nang makitang dumating si Dad at nalamang sasabay siya sa amin. Kaso lang ay ayaw ko namang magpahalatang takot sa kaniya kaya pinilit ko ang sariling makisama sa kanila.