Feels Like Home | A Lizkook AU

5.

What have you done? Screw that, what are you doing??

Jungkook lets his body fall onto the mattress and rubs his temple. He shouldn't have gone to find her, it was such an impulsive move!

Who are you kidding here? You've been thinking about it for nights...all that time doing your so-called 'research'! It wasn't impulsive and you know it!

But that smile of hers could cure cancer – damn! It felt nice seeing her again...and to be able to tell her his name –

Yeah, what's up with that? Why would you tell her your real name?? That's rule number one – never tell anyone your name!

It felt right though, when she called it out loud to him just now. The image of her in small, running steps from her car to his bike came into mind. It's nice that someone in this world now knows his name. It's been so long...and it feels nice to be able to exist again...

Her shy smile when she hands him her phone...for him to put in his phone number –

Okay, we need to talk about this. Something's not right with the way you're acting. You actually gave your real phone number to her – what the fuck is wrong with you?? 

Fine, you can't sleep – go find her and say thank you. Now you're keeping in touch?? You're actually gonna make a friend?

Why not – you know why the hell not!

But she's...she's harmless. She doesn't know anything and...and she's nice –

She's nice, but you're not –

I could be nice too! You can't. Not in this life!

Just shut the fuck up and leave me alone!!

...

Jungkook breathed in the calming breeze of the night. He's been sitting on this bench for 20 minutes now...thinking...and re-thinking...and catching glimpses of the entrance to the lobby of her apartment – expecting her to walk out which will prove to him once and for all that she's a liar and it will then stop whatever it is inside of him that demands for her presence.

Of course he's done his research – Jungkook's not some amateur at finding people - that's all he's been doing for the past week! It's not hard to find shit out about the girl either, her footprints are all over the place. The few clues he brought back from that night are her plate number and Seoul National University.

He ran the registration plate and found a man's name, which could only mean her dad bought the car for her. He searched up for the name and turns out, her father is one of the Chief Superintended General in Korean National Police. Ironic for Jungkook...it's already a red flag for him but he didn't stop. He couldn't.

Then he hacked into Seoul National University backend system to search for the man's last name. The match he got doesn't carry the same name, but was put under as reference for Lalisa Manoban. Which means she's either adopted or it's her stepfather.

Once he knew her name, the digging became easier. He knew almost everything about her by now – from social security details to her background of education, even her bank accounts, medical history and all her social network IDs...he didn't hack it of course! He uncovered all these information within one day. The only things he didn't know were her personal affairs.

That's why he had to stalk her a little. Just a little. He went to wait near her faculty to observe her from afar. Since he has her class schedules, it wasn't really a long wait. She's close with 5 girls. 3 of which would walk out from the same faculty as her. 2 he had seen coming up to hug her when she was sitting on the yard, writing things on her yellow notebook.