Feels Like Home | A Lizkook AU

34.

It's nerve-wracking, that's what it is! He took his time stirring the hot tea while he waits for the reply from Marco - hiding in the kitchen as Lisa gets herself comfortable with the dining area. What - how - how is she here? Exactly here - right fucking now?? How did she find me - it could only be her father cus no one else knew where I am -

His phone buzzed, finally receiving the message he's been waiting for.

Marco B - Lisa:
Yes, Jungkook-ssi
I told her
I'm under a lot of distress with my own woman
for the past 2 days
I can't solve 2 women at one time
especially when the other's problem 
isn't about me
So I suggest you deal with your lady
while I try to calm my own

What?? That's all he can say? Marco you - you ugh!! Help me!!

"It sure took you a long time to make a simple tea," His shoulders jumped slightly at the sound of her voice behind him. "Wonder how long it'll take if I order say...a sugar-free vanilla latte with caramel drizzles on top,"

"I uh..." He locked his phone and plastered a smile. "It'll be around the same time I think...cus no sugar right?" He tried joking - which clearly failed as she didn't even flinch! "It's weird that you'd ask for sugar-free but added on the caramel," He tries another lame tact. 

"You keep on insulting me...some would think you actually, really don't want me around," She rolled her eyes and went back to the dining area. 

Aish...fuck me and my shitty lines!! She looked hot as hell when she did that though so am I winning? Fuck - stop it! But shit, she's really mad - is she gonna kill me? Am I gonna die today cus I know for sure that if she attacks me, I won't be doing anything other than letting her whole-heartedly! Take my damn life - it's already yours anyway!

Jungkook took a deep breath before taking the mug out to her. He placed it carefully on the table she'd chosen, and took the seat in front of her. He played with his knotted fingers while she stares out the windowpane, and he took the time to absorb her presence. 

Her face - as serious and stern as it was - is still cute and beautiful. Her hair seems longer than he could remember, but it's still looked soft and beautiful. Her slender and strong shoulders hunched a little, but the skin revealed from her neck to her collarbones are still glowingly delicate and beautiful. He didn't notice the duffle bag laid by her side when she first got here before - but just like her and maybe because it's hers, it's beautiful too.

"So...mind telling what I deserved to hear?" She broke the silence between them. "Or was everything just on the text you sent?"

Jungkook couldn't find the right answer. Partly because he wasn't sure how much she knew from Marco, and even if she does mean literally about his last text message, he knew no words would ever sound right. 

"Jungkook...if you ever loved me at all -" Past tense. 'At all'. Both are far from true. "Please help me. Tell me the truth and release me from all these wonderings - I've spent nights wondering everything about you! Nothing ever made sense and you kept on leaving me doesn't make sense cus you kept on telling me, showing me how much you loved me -"

"I still love you," He breathed, shutting his eyes because it's too painful to hear her pleading sobs. "Don't...say like it's in the past. I still love you, and I'll always will - I told you that,"

Jungkook opened his eyes and saw how she wiped a tear that fell off her left cheek and crossed her arms on her chest. He stares at her while she looks back to the nothingness outside, and he can't help but realized how tired she looked. It's in her eyes...those beautiful, mesmerizing, round eyes... and he beats himself up for putting it there.