when Night falls.

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Jimin PoV

You've shown me I have reasons,
I should love myself.

I stare at Hyung in awe.

The older's face looks so in peace. So natural while he sings, his soft lips (not that I stare at them!!) moving smoothly and his long slightly crooked fingers wrapped around the mic.

And those lips, they look so soft and full I lick my lips, gently biting on my bottom one.

This is wrong..right? Staring at your hyung like this..

I am part of the Maknae Line. Hyung sees us as his children. He sees us as his babies, Therefore I am not allowed to see him as something other than The Oldest Brother.

But why can't I help but feel something special whenever I look at him?

I know this is bad..but it's so sweet.

No! Bad Jimin! I shake my head. Snapping myself out of it. It's not Okay to think of your hyung like this, Jimin! He won't love someone out of the maknae-line!

As many times that I repeat that. Try to convince myself that I can't Love Jin-hyung any difference than we all do.

I can't help but not ignore these feelings.

It started A few weeks ago.

Everytime he Talks to me It seems like I get at a loss of words. I start stumbling over my words.

Everytime He slightly touches me, if that means patting my shoulder, ruffling my hair or sitting next to me that our thighs touch. I get flustered.

And everytime I see, Laughing, smiling, Living. I just can't help but feel butterflies in my stomach.

And I hate it.

I hate how I feel for my hyung.

First of he's the Oldest! So I will never get a chance with him. There is no way that's possible. Right?

"So how did I do?" Hyung steps out of the booth. I smile at him, but it goes unnoticed. "You sounded amazing, hyungie" Namjoon smiles his dimple smile. Yoongi just Nods in approval while typing away on his computer stuff. Hoseok and Taehyung Just compliment him with a 'good' and 'well done'.

"You did well Hyung" Jungkook smiles at Hyung.

I Raise my eyebrow slightly when Jin-hyung purses his lips while looking around the room. What is he looking at? Then his eyes land on me.

"Jimin-ah" My name comes so smoothly between his lips, I want to hear him say it more.

"Y-yes hyung?" I cough trying to answer as normal as possible. But the light blush creeping up my cheeks gives me away.

"I feel like they're lying to me. Did I really sound good??" He pouts cutely making my heart flutter.  All these days my heart flutters whenever he talks to me.

I chuckle softly and Nod. Giving him my most brightest smile "ofcourse You did hyung! You always do!".

"Your not lying to me, right?" He tilts his head. His voice suddenly dropped an octave lower making me blush.

Unable to answer I stare at him, to be honest that was kind of hot. It definitely caught me off guard.

"Your lying" I look up at him. We just stare into each other's eyes, his deep chocolaty eyes That I would love to drown in. I would wish he could look at me the same way I look at him.

Then I gasp and shake my head wildly. Is this hyung Crazy?! "Ofcourse I didn't lie, hyung!" I smile brightly at him "I would never!".

..

Jealousy

What even is Jealousy?

I think Jealous is when your fiercely protective over your possessions and rights.

My possessions. 

But he isn't Mine.

And sadly he never will be mine.

"Jimin-ah, pay attention to the beats! Your slacking of" My eyes quickly move to Suga-hyung. Who just gave me a sign with his hands to begin again.

I clear my throat and lean in on the mic, closing my eyes to distract myself from the maknae.

The Maknae that's playing with My Jin-hyung.