With love , Draco.

THE SHIFT

-"you can't be Serious it's insane and its dangerous and I don't even think it's gonna work "
she said while looking at me with her wild open eyes .

"come on , I just wanna give it a try, and as you said - it might not even work "
I said while I was searching for some methods online.

"where did you even get that idea from ? shifting? realities ? come on Tess come back to earth , it's not possible and you're just wasting your time !"

I ignored her and kept trying to understand how it works and what method is gonna work the best .
my best friend Jessica - she is the type of person that doesn't believe in such a thing as shifting realities , and to be honest I'm not sure that I either believe that . but I'm still sitting here full with hope that maybe , just maybe there's a chance that it would work .

"okay, you know what ? Tell me about this . "
she sat down on the bed interested blinking with her blue eyes .

"There is nothing to tell , it's basically just as simple as meditation - you just close your eyes , relax your body and get into a very heavy meditative state and then you are starting to imagine your desired reality and it should bring you there .
Also I heard that a lot of people write something that they call a script , where you are supposed to write with details what you want your desired reality to look like ."

she just looked at me confused.
"okay and how long will you be doing this thing ? I mean , how long will you be there ?"

"I don't know , I was reading that you need to script that one year there is one minute here so I guess 7 minutes or something "

"and what if you get stuck there ? "

"nah , it's not possible , beside its only like 7 minutes "

"I don't know , I don't like the whole idea of it . shifting to another reality ? going into a very meditative state ? What if you die there or get hurt ? "

"impossible."
I looked at her , she looked worried and confused at once .

"Listen Tess , why do you want this so hard ? Why can't you just act normal like all of the people ? Why are you always getting into such strange things and themes ? like look , I get it ok ? you don't live your perfect life and you don't have your perfect relationship , but you also don't go out with guys here and you reject those who try to come forward. "

"yea , because they are suck . they don't know what real love is , they don't know what is a soul connection , they can't even pick an interesting topic to talk about .
all they want and need is sex , physical interaction . and you know me , I'm more deep than this , I need more than just a physical connection. "

"Great! so you just decide to switch realities and go to bed while imagining some perfect and beautiful life you created in your head by watching movies . yea. sounds like running away from your current problems . I think you should just visit a psychologist so he could help you with your traumas and issues , so you can stop believing in such bullshit like magic and "shifting realities " you are sick!.

"Are you serious right now ? I can't believe you just said that . "
I closed my laptop and looked at her in shock , trying to hold my tears .

"listen Tess, I didn't mean to say that like this but-"

"No. You did. I don't even wanna hear you . go home Jessica . "

"but Tess I-"

"I said go home!" I yelled at her . for the first time since ever.
she took her things and after 5 minutes she was gone .

I went back to my room and sat down at my desk .
"and that's why I have nothing to lose by trying this. What could be worse than living life where everyone thinks that you're just some crazy girl believing in magic and miracles .
My dad is sick, My mom is always at work and my friends think I'm sick and crazy, great . just perfect. Fuck it I'm gonna try it . "

I took a piece of paper and started to "script " that Desired reality with tears in my eyes .
i don't know how long I was sitting there but when I finished , it was near midnight .
I scripted a couple of pages and when I looked at it I felt like I'm literally going crazy .
"maybe they are all right? Maybe I am going insane and I just need a good psychologist ? "
that little voice in my head - I hate it.
"No. I want to try it."

I took a shower , and changed to my pajamas .
After a while I was already in my comfy bed trying to relax to some theta sounds .
I started to feel my body getting numb and my breath was getting more slow .
I kept repeating the Affirmations as I'm literally stopped feeling my whole body .
after a while I felt something weird , it was a feeling of me falling .
I got a little bit scared but I knew that if I will open my eyes it will not work , so I kept going .

but then I heard a really loud noise of a door being slamming , I opened my eyes and I was shocked.
"it worked . it actually worked. I shifted."