Enmeshed Kinship

14

"Uhm, hey hey hey, Michael" I was in a hurry while walking, made my legs wider in every step I make and called him when I can't already reach him just so I hope he'll stop with that way and so he did.

"You know, what happened there was completely fluke." I told him . "Michael. Hear me out, will you?"

His incorrigible forbidding gaze was given right in front of me, waiting for explanation. I don't even know why do I feel like I was oblige giving him an oath, telling him everything about me, keeping the only secret he told me where I was involved, when all about him was still indistinct.

"Look, I didn't tell you and never had been bothered in telling you kasi you're out of it. It isn't your business, not your job, not anything." I calmly told him, being extra careful for he might be sensitive this time and suddenly turn his back on me.

"My mom wanted you to give the five years up that you sacrificed Sara, how could you be just feasible?"

"And how could you be so naive? she told me where I was up to. All those credentials I strived in having was shrinking, Michael, what do you expect me to do? And one thing, your hospital isn't the only one."

We had an argument considering that Allison slipped into her words. Maybe her mom told her and not her brother, and she didn't knew about it so I understand how considerable it is. Ever since their mom suggested that thing for me, I made my resignation form and started having second thoughts in passing it, but I made my decision already for tomorrow.

He slammed the door of his car, and started it up, I was waiting for him to leave me pero he opened his window.

"Your things are here. My destination is your destination. When are you planning on getting in here?"

With that, I hurriedly came to his shotgun seat.

"You were mad at me because of that very non-sense reason so I thought you'll leave me"

"You came here with me, I won't leave you"

"Yeah, Michael I hope you understand, I mean, come on, there's no big deal, it was an absurd reason if we'll fight over it" I nervously chuckled.

"Then you cannot be trusted in big deals, can you?"

I was silent for seconds after my smile earlier just disappeared , probably feeling embarrassed and little bit moping. I saw him in my peripheral vision as I was directly giving my attention to the road. He looked at me for a second then talked.

"Let's just call it a truce, shall we?"

He sighed and received no response from me. I took his words as daggers pricking my heart, it was offensive. I didn't really mean everything, so should he. I just thought that he wouldn't care about that, it was too childish to just walk out like that and I don't know either why he had to yank me figuratively with his presence. Something pushed me to follow him eh ewan ko ba.

"Thanks" I told him as I immediately got out of his car, it was too awkward and I hate it, kaya naman binilisan ko na din yung lakad para makapag ayos na kaagad ako. Maybe five minutes palang nasundan niya na ako sa condo and thankfully, I'll be having my half bath na. Got my towel and anything I know na I need sa restroom.

I had my sleepwear with me kaya sa bathroom na ako nagbihis, done my skincare after 10 minutes of shower.

As I walked out of the restroom, he was standing in front of its door. I tried not to look at him not because of what happened earlier, pero dahil wala din naman akong sasabihin. I bowed my head a little as sign of my excuses.

"Sara" I heard him called me with his throaty voice.

"Hm?" I refused to look back at him just so I'll feel more comfortable without seeing his intimidating gaze on me.

"Come here"

He did what I refused to do kanina. He's now standing in front of me. Both of his hands in my shoulder and jerked it to hug me which is the shockingly supercalifragilisticexpialidocious part of every conversation we did and shared for each other! I think I might've pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis right now just because on how I breath plus the part that something exploded in me like volcano which is all of my emotions, it's suffocating!

Ok, ok, take a deep breath annnddd exhale. Great, sorry I was exaggerated.

I hugged him back, with my arms positioned in his shoulder coming from below of his armpit and in between his arms. And gradually pushed him.

"Why? What is it?"I asked him.

"I'm sorry"

"Oh is that it? It's fine that was nothing, it was my fault anyway, was not it?" He only looked at me kaya tinuloy ko nalang ulit yung sinasabi ko. "Michael, please leave. I don't want to jeopradize you, at isa pa hindi mo naman na talaga kailangan gawin yun diba?" I said, laughing at it. "Just live your life, we weren't under some renege, some contract, you weren't officially compromised. Look at us. It don't feel like we're working"

"Then let's work it out"

I looked at him, confused. And chuckled when I realized what he's talking about.

"No, no, that's not what I mean. Aren't you here for your job? It's awkward for me but it don't look like it that way."

"And you're implying?"

"I was just suggesting you to leave. I don't know how to explain this, ok how do I explain this uh" he sat on the couch beside me. Nakapamewang ako gamit ang isang kamay ko lang, at hindi padin makatingin sakanya. "I'm not saying na you're not doing your job, it's just-"

"Oh am I? I don't remember the last time I did my job"

"Huh?"

"Oh what job are you pertaining?"