Enmeshed Kinship

03

I haven't slept for hours, day really, and I have no choice.Kapag naman natulog ako hindi naman ako magigising agad agad at mas mapapagod pa ko. I had my lunch for 5 minutes para makapagpahinga na ako kaya nandito lang ako sa private room ng patient.We were slightly close so I told him na makikistay muna ako habang hindi pa 'ko kailangan.

"Sara" It's Allison, I haven't seen her before I discovered what I've done.

"Hey" I smiled a little, feeling flustered.

"I have something to tell you, can I? I mean nothing personal for both of us" then chuckled, "I just think I'll be needing some of your solicitude"

Her tears were starting to fall down and I can't just see but also feel it. I had never been that sweet and clingy but I may not know what she's been through I still want to help her out of that quandary. Although I have an innuendo feeling na what she's facing is because of me, I mean I'm the root of it. And I feel sorry that I can't tell her since they don't want me involve in that case anymore, I feel sorry about that, that the anonymous snitch who helped their opposition in derogating them is useless and have no audacity in making things right.

My dad, ever since, had been keeping our relationship secret. Always. He really have this miniscule reason inside him that he don't want to share with us. Blake and I, well and our dad is the only person who knows that we were all relatives. I don't know why, but the only thing he tells us is "I need my authority and publicity of our relationship will ruin--"and bla bla bla bla. I know there's deeper reason but I'm not the interfering type so fine, I let him say that, even I don't ask though.And yes, Judge is my dad, my dad is the judge who asked me to do it.And asked me to live with that fierce investigator.At first I thought Michael is the agitating type, but then I was wrong, he's kind actually(for offering me pizza last night) I honestly just got pissed and forced myself to understand his situation, and that is murdering foods all the time.

I don't know why I'm thinking of random things right now, is it only because this moment of us is awkward for me?I don't know, I want to comfort her, I really do, and that's what I'm doing aside from the fact that I don't know how to deal with it.I've been hugging her, umiyak lang siya mula kanina and didn't say any single word, I guess it's just really comfort what she needs, then fine. I searched for my phone and found Blake's name on my contact.

I was about to call him and "Hey don't please?He's a busy person chasing his dreams so let him"oh that's deep Blake, if only you could hear that but I'm sorry YOU'RE A BUSY PERSON ,I felt I little lousy on that.lol

"What happened?"I asked her.
Pinupunasan na niya yung mukha niya.

"Well, they had a little misunderstanding, my parents and Kristine's parents"

"What?why?"

"I don't honestly know"

"Come here" I hugged her and started crying again.

"Para namang ang aga ako paglamayan ng mga tao dito"
That's the patient,kakagising lang.We only laughed at him as our response and syempre nagsorry na din if ever we woke him up.I don't know if laughing at it is necessary pero nakisabay nalang ako,although I felt sad with that.He'll be undergoing the whipple and I need to have more hours to sleep so I won't bungle.That isn't and will never be doctors' option.

Oh and by the way, I'll continue the random things that I've been thinking kanina since wala naman ako kasama sa table sa cafeteria ngayon. Hindi ko ito masyadong pinoproblema kasi I let someone handle this cafeteria of mine right now.

Allison don't also knew the "me,blake and judge thing" what she only knew is I have access to his boyfriend as neigbor and hindi naman ganun kaselosa si Allison,only to find out na niloloko siya ng isang tao. Ganun yung inakala niya before kaya akala ko we'll never be friends, sabihan ba naman akong matandang kabit. Hindi lang nakakadiri, nakakainsulto pa tsk. Nagkaayos lang kami nung nalaman niya na I have the same dream as her, and that's also when we started planning,praying and asking for that thing to happen.

"I don't know if meeting you with just same scenarios are probably right but will you let me?"
He acted waiter, having the same posture, smile and arms on his tummy as if there's towel in it.

"Sure, why again?"

"Nothing, I just want to.
"
"You know why I had private investigator right? To keep my privacy and eradicate informations about us if ever someone's searching for it, and right now I think you are the only particular person who invades that privacy itself, the one who supposed to keep that away from everybody,including yourself."I tried to sound calm para hindi niya mamisunderstood yung sinabi ko.

"Yes.Why do you want privacy so much by the way?Those parents from your paper don't even exist"
Omg.Busted.I'm doomed,I mean he is.How did he know?All were being cheated when it comes to our personal informations.

"What did you just say?"

"I'm kidding, thought I got you, seems I like you did"he then chuckled.

"What do you mean by that?"

"Your facial expression"

We stayed silent for a minute.I've been staring in this vague windows in front of us, dala ng moist since umulan and malamig dito sa loob. And siya, I think he's been staring at me naman kanina pa.

"I said I'm kidding"

"And?"I asked him,confused

"You don't feel upset?I said those parents don't even exist.Sorry in advance, though"

Yeah he's right,I should have felt that.

"What made you dream of being a doctor?it's full time, I mean there's no specific time kasi everytime may patient na kailangan mo isalba, so you really have no choice but to be that workaholic."

"Said the man who chose to invade someone's privacy" i told him then drank my frappe

"Well privacy is overrated."

I just laugh at it"You know what?I thought you were hostile or something"

"You'll never know."his voice were husky and calming, I don't know I just find him hot,just like any other man with that.

"Will you come with me?I have to go, I haven't slept yet I need to rest for tomorrow"

"Sure"

"But please, I'm a light sleeper, just keep quiet if possible, 'kay?"

Nakauwi na kami and buti nalang 5pm palang since 4am ako bukas, kaya kailangan ko na talaga matulog.
Something tempted me na matulog nalang maya maya.The Files. I was curious kaya mamaya na nga lang ako matutulog.

Name: Sara P. Cortez
Relatives: Mother/Father(unknown)
Possible relatives:Judge Cortez(Father). Blake Paralejas (brother)

I harshly closed the files, sinabi ba sa kaniya ni dad yung about samin?kaya ba hindi niya nilagay sa relatives ko yung parents kasi alam niyang hindi talaga nageexist yun? But how?ang alam lang ng mga tao we had the same surname, and no one cares.Why would he think like those really secret relatives of mine were possible relatives from public?