The Ghost King Goes to Hogwarts

A/N

Okay Ik authors notes are always super sucky so I'm just going to say this quickly.

IM SORRY

This chapter may take a while im not even at 1k words yet so Im sorry. See I've been writing other fanfics- though i havent put them on wattpad so dont look- of more cross overs with nicole. I will be posting them at some point but mainley when I'm like over half way done so I won tbe too stressed.

If you want to no what I'm going to be putting its just a bunch of crap gender switches and crossovers. 

1. A batman Nicole crossover

2. An outsiders gender switch- the outsiders is this really great book (I dont really care for the movie but thats just my opinion)

3. And lastly an OC charecter story called "Daughter of Hades" and will have Percico (Yes ima multishipper- sue me.)

But yeah that's pretty much it, so that's why it takes a while to update. Hopefully I'll churn the next oen out next week, fingers crossed. 

Then another note that is pretty important to me...

Be careful.

This isn't about covid though you should be careful about too, but be careful about yourself. What you do. How you act. What you say. Everything.

And ik each and every person reading this has probably heard this millions of times but you need to understand. Thi is from a 13 year old's perpective. 

(TW! If you suffer from bad depression where you can get triggered from talking about self harm or sucide then do not read this please)

School sucks. Middle school is crappy. But you know the main thing that makes it so horrible? The people there. These kids. The cruel, horrible kids. But the thing is... they weren't always like this. The little pre schoolers running around in a playground aren't like this. But they will be. For all we know that tiny toddler beaming up at you, asking you to play with them could grow up to be a terrorist. A murderer.

And I know i"m getting serious for once but please listen to me. 

In middle school I've learnt, I've seen, I've experienced that each and every action these kids do has a deeper meaning behind it. A sign. 

And these signs can be anything, a stupid comment, a short temper, a hand gesture, or even a single tear that they hide behind their snarky sarcastic persona. 

And they can mean anything too. That they have been hurt, abused, neglected, driven to self-harm. Anything. 

But what I'm here to say is that you, yourself can cause these things. You can hurt someone like this. Even if it isn't intentional. Just the tiniest things. A glare, a comment, even a word of fustration.

And I speak from experience. 

The smallest things you do can have a catstophic effect on someone. ANd that's scary. That's why all these kids are hurting themselves, killing themselves. They feel like they have the pressure of the world on their shoulders and most of the time they do. I mean nowadays you can say a single phrase "Go kill yourself!" for example, just in a spur of anger and the next thing you know their gone. 

If any of you have looked at my description you can see I suffer with depression and anxiety. And I'll admit, I have done self harm. And I still do at times when it gets too hard. And after I do it, everytime I feel so much regret it makes me want to kill myself right then and there. 

But I don't.

Because I believe if I push through middle school, past high school, past these horrible children... past these hurt children... past these broken children, then maybe it'll get better, you know? 

But I know the smallest things can trigger me. Can hurt me. A simple word. Can send me in a swirling hurricane of pain in my mind. And it hurts. Bad.

Everything about me is there for a reason. Everyone of my decisions or opinions are there for a reason. And all of them are because of another human being. 

i don't want to get married. I refuse to even let myself think of dating another human being. Because of a single experience. A single betrayal. So I closed off the romantic part of me, and threw away the key.

That's just one example. 

But there are so many other people who are just like me. And everyone needs to understand this. I can't stress this enough. Please, I'm begging you, think of what you say before you say it. Don't just put yourself in someone else's shoes, put yourself in their mind. What they could be feeling or thinking. How you could hurt them. 

Do you know how many times I've thought of killing myself? How many times I just want everything to fade, to leave, to let me be at peace? Now I don't say this for any of your pity or "understanding" because no one understands me. Just as I can never fully understand another human being either. Most of the time we don't understand ourselves. I know I don't.

But everyone just needs to remember. You don't know. You don't understand. You could never ever understand. And that's fine. But never go up to someone and say that. Because you don't know what's going on inside their heads. You don't know what's going on at home. You don't know.

And I know I've been changing subject really quickly talking about one thing to an other- I'm not really good at staying on track- but I just want everyone to know from this. 

Be careful. Don't hurt others. No matter how good it makes you feel, or how good the outcome is for you. Don't. You don't want to be a murderer. You don't want to be the cause for something horrible.

 But also remember that it will get better. And I know! I know how many times you guys have heard this but it will. I promise you. Even if it takes 50 years it will get better! Don't, please don't hurt yourself. I mean, of course I'm being the biggest hypocrite in the world and I have absolutely no right to say this but, please. Please, don't. 

When a flood comes don't just build a dam. That's what I've done since 2nd grade. And guess what? My dam can't possibly get any higher. But the flood won't stop. And as the days go on there's another crack, another leak. And when the dam comes crashing down... well what can you do?

No. When a flood comes let it come. If you don't know how to ride a wave then just let it come. Just make sure you can stay afloat. Even if it's just the very tip of your nose. Just keep breathing. Don't get dragged under by the tide. Don't let it build up.

Just accept it. And the floods will get lesser. Though, everything has to get worse before it can get better. I don't know how long your worse period will be but the bible says something along the lines of God will not give you more than you can handle and though in the moment it doesn't seem like that God will always be here to help you. to be your sounding board when there's no one else there.

And please try to believe that. I'm not telling you what to believe, but just think about it. Consider maybe there are greater things at work in this world. And maybe... just maybe... there's hope for us after all. 

Alright sirius stuff is over... Mainly. But I just needed to say that. I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable. But yes, it may be a bit till an update. Sorry y'all!

But I love all of you! And please... just stay safe. Stay hopeful. Stay afloat. 

PotatoFishees 🐟🐟🐟

Or if you want you can call me Dawn  :) 

I'm here if anyone needs help. 

To get some insightful 13 year old advise.

But all jokes put aside I'm here for all of you if you need to vent. I love all of you.

Also I'm posting this in my profile to help anyone who doesn't like my story lol. Just DM me if yall need anything!

-Dawn 🖤