Lost In Your World

Wan's Agony

Earth

Fire

Air

Water

Only the Dual Avatars master of all four elements can bring balance to the world.

Book IV: Balance

Chapter III: Wan's Agony

Wan kisses Baru on her fur then rubs her under her neck, Naga licks Wan a bit and he giggles. "Now, you two play nice, I don't want to hear about you two fighting, alright," Wan says as he sets up his small boat. Tonraq and Senna hug the first Avatar and he embraces them. "Thank you."

"Stay safe," Senna smiles, Wan waves as he sets sail for Republic City, smiling at the thought of seeing Korra once more, knowing that she waited for him. He docks a couple of times at a few stops and gets some food. Once he makes it to the Republic City bay, he smiles to himself as it is past sundown. He turns his head to see a figure in with distance and he backs up once he realizes it's him in the Avatar state like that fateful day. Wan panics but breathes in... and keeps moving to dock in the city. Wan begins to ask people if they have seen or heard of Avatar Korra's return but he gets confused looks and nos.

Wan's heart cracks into a million pieces - she didn't wait. She didn't keep the promise. Wan is lost for words, he rushes back to the ship and leaves Republic City as soon as he arrives with a heavy heart.

Wan docks the boat at a nearby bay in the Earth Kingdom and keeps himself hidden. Once he is far from anyone's sight, he makes a fire, changing out of his old clothes into a green poncho with patterns of brown, pants, and sandals. He burns his old clothes and looks at himself in a nearby puddle. He takes his hair, angry and tired of all the pain he has suffered, putting the small dagger behind his hair as he holds it firmly in his other hand. He hesitates for a moment, he must leave Wan, the first Avatar behind. He cries a few tears, then opens his eyes filled with determination.

He needs to heal on his own.

He needed to be just Wan, even for a moment. A moment of decision graces him, he chooses to let go of his old self, his old wounds, his old burdens.

With one stroke, his long hair is cut, letting go of his old identity.

Wan burns the cut hair with his fire bending, leaving behind his new style cut high above his shoulder. He wipes his tears and moves forward with his backpack. Not looking back even once.

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Wan braces himself as he pushes through a snowstorm keeping himself warm through breathing techniques. He uses his brown scarf as another way to keep himself warm and he wears black boots. He looks up to see the Northern spirit portal. He walks into the Spirit World where the two worlds meet and breathe as he takes off his scarf, as he feels warmer now. He looks around to where spirits roam and the sky is bright with oranges and reds as friendly spirits rest. Wan meditates in the middle of the tree trying to concentrate on anything but he sees nothing. He sighs as he falls on his back, groaning. A few spirits walk across to him, "Everyone, come here! It's the first Avatar reborn!"

The other spirit looks at Wan, "Why isn't he with his partner? And, he doesn't seem to have Raava's energy. Plus, doesn't the first Avatar have longer hair and different clothes?" another spirit ponders. "I can hear you know," Wan retorts. The spirits gasp as Wan sits up. "I am the first Avatar, I just cut my hair and got some new clothes and my partner left me behind" Wan sighs. "How come and her you've been away so long?" Wan glances down sadly, 'We were badly hurt...and I lost my connection to Raava."