Arielle Reedsy Anthology

Blue

It was when I took the left instead that I forgot.

I had always lived with the fear that if I deviated, I would lose.

I suppose I'm not different than others then.

Like them, I wandered captive to a faceless moment played on loop throughout my mind.

And like them, I sought revelations and guidance from it.

Like an over-glorified lap dog, I sought petitions at my memory's feet.

But unlike then, it wasn't my past I remembered, but my future. I knew what I would wear, who I would love, and how I would die.

Both a comfort and a curse, I kept these memories to myself.

How do you forgive yourself for all you never became?

It's wasn't like me looking back on life, introspectively reflecting at my choices, but instead, knowing the ones I would make, seeing the failures and flaws, and being powerless to change it.

I lived in fear that if I moved my piece, made my play in the game of my memories, that I would forget all that was set before me.

And though the light turned green that day to make a right, I moved over and took a left instead.

For what is freedom is you know the cost?

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She lives her life exactly how her memories say she will, until she realizes that who she is at the end isn't who she thought. So, instead of following her memory, she turns left at a light that told her to turn right. And because she went against her memory, her future, she loses it all.
Remember that these parts are individual and each "memory" is a little different with different conditions and parameters, so this "do something different and you forget everything" rule only applies to this character.