Lethal Ways Not To Kill Yourself

Fears and Forbidden Thoughts 7 : Elikai

Just don't ask me what we were talking about.

Just don't.

Stop.

HE DIDN'T HOLD MY HANDS, I TOLD YOU TO STOP.

I was waiting for Alex to come and start distracting Kassy and Andrew. Tapping my feet as fast as I could as if doing so would make the time spin faster. I ran up to him as soon as I could.

"Hey, where were you?" I asked and walked away from the trio. They followed us behind; tormenting Kal, I assume. I didn't want to be held accountable for what happened. My head his all fuzzy and dripped with all the emotions that flashed in front of me, it's too hard to compute which one do I want to feel and avoid.

"I was at the cafeteria, duh. I told Kass that you'll be in the park but looks like," He turned back to look at Kal, who was busy talking to Andrew and his sister, "someone knew where you'd be right before me." The grin on his face was two puns away from kissing a stone, I hope he knew that.

"Yeah, he was just talking me out of the fright." I brushed him off.

"So," Alex started to kick away the rocks like he always does, "did you find any dirt on him?"

"I know something, but it's not enough. It's definitely not easy to open him up. He's so comfortable with being secluded that it's...scary."

"Not all have to be a social butterfly like you to feed their energy." Alex had put his hands in the pockets of his letterman; he was eagerly waiting for Kass to catch up with him.

"I know, but you need someone to tell what's going on with you. Bottling up emotions is like a bomb; you'll blast off and hurt everyone close to you."

"What's with late night and you becoming Shakespeare, bruh, cut me some slack." Alex sneered, scrunching his nose. "It's too late for my brain to function."

"Aww, you smelt your brain fart too? Don't worry, I won't tell Kass." I winked at him as he grabbed me by the neck and manoeuvred.

A harsh tap on my shoulders forced me to turn around, Kal was now walking with us. Before I realised, my body had given its control to my devil side who clearly wanted to mess my life since 2002. My eyes had widened so much, my stomach turned into knots as if doing so would anchor my eyeballs to stay where they belong.

"If you don't mind Alex," Kal was totally ignoring me but leaned in so close, I wondered if his cheeks were capable of smelling the dinner I had, "Can I take Eli for a moment? Would you say something to his parents to cover it up?"

"Wait, are you taking him to your place?"

The chills down my spine made me freeze and just stare at him with my eyes popping. I couldn't fathom what he was up to, nor did I want him to manipulate me into believing whatever he did was right. A thousand thoughts were escaping and crossing my mind but none of them connected well for me to speak something.

"No, I mean, I gotta drop Andrew to his place and he's got to run some errands. I don't want Kass to hang around, so, with all my poor decision-making skills. I trusting you with the job of dropping her off safely. I am taking Eli with me."

Alex nodded like a wild puppy who was just offered some food. Of course, he wouldn't deny that offer. Kal deliberately did it, Alex would never leave me alone at night. I can't believe my cousin chose a girl over me.

"What say, Eli?" Kal was finally asking me, I wonder what made him seek the consent of the person in question.

"Um," I screwed my nose, folding my hands but rubbing my temples with another, "if you're leaving Alex with Kass, alone," I leaned in, furrowing my eyebrows, "wouldn't my surveillance make it more secure journey?"