The Golden Wolf

Chapter 2: It's my what??

The day went by pretty quickly. Just the normal high school stuff. Hannah and I was walking out to my car planning on going to mall for a bit.

"You know, I am a little disappointed we didn't get to see Zander today. I thought for sure with him just getting back he would want to make an appearance at school." Hannah muses.

Rubbing my temples, I look over at her, "Yeah you're right. I wonder if they'll have a pack meeting to officially welcome him back later this week. Talk about what happened and if anything changed."

"Oh, good point. Plus, I really am not sure when he got back." she shrugs. "Are you okay Emmy? You haven't looked well all day. We can go home if you'd like?" She leads me over to the food court and I sit down pulling my head between my legs to the dizziness subside.

"I don't," I trail off and just start vomiting.

"Em, oh goddess." Hannah pulls my hair out of my face and sits next to me. Pulling out her phone she calls Blake.

"Hey babe, can you come pick me and Emersyn up from the mall? She just got sick and I don't want her driving home."

I couldn't hear the other side of the conversation. I could barely keep my eyes open. Everything hurt. My body was on fire. I felt like my skin was being ripped off with a dull pocket knife. I caught glimpses of the conversation.

"Thank you.....yeah.... No, she hasn't yet......I think it's her time......Okay. I love you too," Hannah hangs up the phone and continues rubbing my back. "It's okay Em, Blake is on his way."

I try to say thank you but my mouth doesn't want to work so I just nod. Next thing I know I'm being picked up and carried to my car.

"Hannah is going to drive you home and I'm going to follow her. We've already called your mom so they're expecting us." Blake tells me as we make it to the car. Carefully he lays me in the back seat and closes the door. I can see them talking before Hannah climbs in.

A few hours later I wake up in my bed. I still feel sick but I can move now. I start to sit up when mom comes rushing in the room.
"Oh honey, I was so worried about you! What happened? Do you need to go to the doctor?" mom rushes out, hands flying around, checking my head and pulse.

"I'm okay ma, I don't know what happened. I woke up with a headache and I thought it was nerves with starting a new school. All of a sudden, I just got sick. What's wrong with me?" I ask mom with tears forming.

"Honestly, I think it's your wolf dear. I think she's stronger than we thought and she's trying to make her appearance. I think you need to shift soon. Unfortunately, the full moon is still a week away." mom says brushing my hair from my eyes, "that means we're going to have to call the Luna to help you through this. But first, let's get you in the bath to clean up. Hannah is still here if you want me to send her up. She's worried about you."

"Mom, you know how I feel about them! Why can't I just tough to out?" I whine. Moms glare sends chills down my spine as her wolf creeps out.

"Emersyn, you will show respect for the Alpha Family. I do not care. Once you and your wolf connect, she will be both loyal to you and them. It would be foolish to make her choose. You will go crazy, and the wolf will be forever lost. You'd be rouge with no wolf. All for what? Because the young alpha has some growing up to do? Apparently, so do you." And with that I was let alone. The shadow of mom's words ringing through the air.

Holding back the tears I slowly crept into the bathroom and undressed. Just thinking about the alpha family had my anxiety going crazy. I felt dirty just thinking about them coming into my house, my space, my room. Helping me when I am at my weakest. I grabbed my phone and turned on Marilyn Manson and just let the hot water rush over me. No one could know. No one. I would keep it from my wolf even. I don't want to become rouge. I have to lock these memories back up.

A knock at the door scared me before Hannah poked her head. "Em? Are you alright?" she turned down the music so she could talk to me.

Sighing heavily, I answered her, "Yeah I'm alright. I don't feel like my skin is ripping off anymore" I jokingly say.

I hear a sigh and peek my head out "Em, you really scared me. I didn't know what was wrong. Your mom told me she thinks it's your wolf. Do you feel her yet? The connection?" Hannah inquires.

"Right now, I don't feel anything. But I do have a headache still. Perhaps that's her trying to breakthrough. Mom says it'll probably be painful until the full moon and I can shift. I hope we connect before that though so the shift will be easier on both of us." During the first shift if the wolf and the person hasn't connected it is extremely painful for both parties. Joining mind, body, and soul is a painful process. If the connection happens before the shift, it gives both parties the chance to slowly conjoin the mind. Getting used to sharing your head is a process.

"I don't remember my first time being this bad. I wonder if that means you'll have a special wolf. Ohhh I wonder what color she'll be. I bet you're gonna have a white wolf. With this going on I just know it!" Hannah squeals. I roll my eyes even though she can't see me.

"Han, I think you're more excited than I am about this whole thing. Can you hand me a towel?"

"Obviously I am! You're my best friend! I can't wait to be able to talk to you through the mind link. Just think of everything we can say with no one knowing,"

Stepping out of the shower I send a glare towards Hannah. She laughs and follows me to my room.

"Emersyn, come down here when you're done. The Luna is here," mom calls.

Me and Hannah share a look, "On that note I'm out. I'll call you later to check on ya. Bye love ya!" Hannah yells as she bolts from my room. Thanks for leaving me to fend for myself I sigh to myself.