Hidden From The World

speechless

Speechless

My alarm went off and i groaned. It got louder by the second and i couldnt take it anymore. I slammed my fist on it and it distantly faded. I looked at it and saw it almost split in half. Hah. Cheap stuff. I had a shower and dried my hair. I grabbed a white hoodie from my closed with black cargo pants. The same old costume. The reason i dressed like this was something i tried soo hard to forget. Almost loosing your virginity at 12 was not a good thing. So many vivid memories in me but this one scarred me for life. I can still remember it even if i tried so hard to forget.

My eyes were closed and i was sound asleep when my step-dad came in to my room. A little drunk and senseless. My blanket started to come off and i jolted awake. I looked at him and he had this evil grin. I opened my mouth to scream as loudly as i can but his palm  clamped my trap shut. He lifted my top up and tears ran down my face. I thrashed under the covers as wildly as i could. My teeth sunk in his hand and he took off my mouth. And i screamed. My mom burst through the door. “what happened?” she asked frantically. I couldnt stop sobbing to reply. But the bastard did it for me and i cursed myself why didnt i do it in the first place. “oh nothing happend. She just had i nightmare” he slurred as if he just woke up.

Tears clouded my vision as i remembered that day. He didnt try that move on me again as i got older. He proably knew that i would rip him apart. Thats why i never gave up training. I looked for my glasses and i couldnt find them anywhere. I didnt really need them. “looking for these” came a female voice from behind me. I spun around to find Bryn and she had my glasses in her hand. I reached for it but it was out of range. She smiled and twisted the frame and the whole thing snapped in two. I gaped at her. “you dont need em so why use em” she said. “fine” i grumbled and stormed past her. “oh come on, Lexi. You have stunning eyes so why not show them?” she said in a matter-of-fact way. I sighed and grummbled something that was not appropiete for innocent ears. I shoved a piece of bread in my mouth and headed for school.

“hi” said Allie. She was smiling; this girl knew how to forget. “hey” i replied as i opened my locker. Allie hesitated before opening her’s. “its ok, Viper’s at home locked in a class cage and iam sure i dont have any other poisonous pets that Will knows about” i laughed. She smiled and then it was gone replaced by a frown. Just then Will came up beside me. Allie looked away and concentrated on her locker combination. I gave Will a glare. “apologize now” i growled at him. He cast his eyes down and walked to Allie. He ran fingers through his brown hair. “Allie, iam sorry” he said with a nervous smile. nervous? The dude was never nervous. Allie ignored him and just walked to class. I smiled to my self. That should teach him a good lesson. His shoulders slumped and he gave me a shrug. “i tried” he said. i felt my blood heating. “your gonna keep saying sorry till she forgives you” i said with a wicked grin. He groaned.

It has been 10 seconds and Rafe hasnt poked me. Countdown 5 4 3 2 1. And there goes the pencil. I turned around and peered at him from under my hoodie. He smirked at me and pulled the hoodie off. locks of my hair flew around me. My eyes met his and he kept staring. His mouth was slightly open. “you keep your trap open, i am sure you’ll attract flies” i smiled sweetly. He closed his mouth and seemed to be searching words to say. “umm , can we do history late today, i ‘ve got football practice?” he asked. And something told me that that was not the first thing he wanted to say. I nodded and turned back. It hasnt been 3 seconds and he poked me again. I spun sround in fury. “what?” i asked through gritted teeth.  “your glasses, are you sure you can see without them?” he smirked. I ignored that whole question and started to read my history paper. Something poked my on my shoulder blade again. I let out a shaky breath and turned toward him. “how many fingers am i holding” he asked holding three fingers out. I pretended to  scrunch my eyes as if trying to see it. “three” i said with an frustrated sigh. Students started to pass papers down the rows. I took one and passed the rest to Rafe. He did the same. Gabe was already in here, sitting and reading a book. I looked at the paper. A quiz. I hope Rafe passes because if he doesnt, i will kick his ass.