I think I love you.. {completed}

time to talk

raskel: you ok though? im being real no joke?

she shrugged her shoulders

raskel: whats wrong? you can tell me?

luna: what pushed you to cheat on your ex?

he looked at her surprised and sat down

raskel: do you think I'm cheating on you?

luna: no .. but i don't know i been huh ..

raskel: naw what? do you really think that?

luna: no victor i just feel like i been boring ok like we got married i moved in became a housewife then that's it .. i don't want you to get bored

raskel: ok .. i cheated on Ashley because i didn't love her i honestly didn't care for her, in the end, we broke up like 10 times in that year i cant even tell you the one time i was ever happy with her .. you are not her i would never do you like that babe?

luna: i know ..

raskel: and i could never get bored I love coming home to you and angel the way he runs into my arms each day I've never had this kind of happiness

luna: me either .. we love you .. I'm just scared nothing ever really lasts good for me i don't wanna loose you

he got up and hugged her

raskel: your never going to loose me to the streets or another bitch .. plus i would never put myself in a position where i could loose you I've waited forever to be happy I am now and its staying this way

she nodded and side smiled

luna: I'm sorry

raskel: no don't be i get it it comes with this lifestyle but i want you to always know your my only one forever babe .. loyalty and family is important to me but you can always talk to me don't ever be scared to tell me shit i love you

luna: i love you too

raskel: so you gonna tell me what made you feel like this?

She sighed

luna: i don't know cruzitos birthdays coming up meaning my moms death is coming up its all crazy

raskal: we can visit her? take her flowers?

luna: shes up north and i don't wanna risk running into my grandparents

raskel: true but you get to take angel and me to meet her i wanna meet my suegra and you know i would deal with them if they tried there shit

she nodded

luna: I'm down having you with me would make me feel better and you should meet her i just wish she was alive .. it still doesn't feel right

raskel: yea i know that feeling ..

the night went by

edgar: you talk to her about going to visit her mothers grave but you haven't taken her to see your mom or felon?

raskel: cuz i know my mom will pull on my legs haha

edgar: I'm serious raskel

raskel: i haven't been back since she died .. I'm still mad i guess .. she didn't fight she didn't care if she left me alone she huh .. felons different but i just never went back or even told luna anything she just knows they died

edgar: you married her you have to be honest and fair with her shes taking you to see her mothers grave take her to visit your mother

raskel: fuck it i guess i should talk about it first i been quiet

edgar: just tell her man who knows maybe your mom wont be to mad haha

they laughed and went there ways he got home late that night ..

luna: mm your home

raskel: yea had to finish up some stuff .. but babe?

luna: yea?

she turned over to him

raskel: would you wanna take a trip out to the border?

luna: for what?

she pulled her self up

raskel: to visit my brother and mom? my tias out there too haven't seen her in years

luna: you wanna go? and why you telling me this right now? haha its 3 am?

raskel: i get to meet your mom .. you should meet mine.. and cuz i couldn't wait to ask

luna: ok babe

raskel: your not gonna ask why i haven't brought it up?

luna: I've always wondered and wanted to cuz you don't even have pictures of them up but i don't wanna be like that so i left it up to you you still don't have to tell me why either babe

he nodded and sat back ..

raskel: i never brought it up because ... because huh fuck ok I'm still angry 7 years later i haven't seen a picture of my mom since i buried her i carry my brothers picture in my wallet behind yours and angels ..

luna: why are you angry?

he looked down .. she got closer to him and hugged him

raskel: i hate emotions

luna: i know i do to but i know you have a heart babe its ok

he nodded and hugged her

raskel: after he died its like she forgot i existed she let it all go i was suffering to but fighting for her .. she planned it i swear

luna: what do you mean?

raskel: i need a smoke

she nodded .. he got up she followed him out to the balcony ..

raskel: she killed herself it wasn't proven because my tia said no biopsy but i knew she did she was ok healthy one night she told me goodnight said prayer and told me i love you don't you ever forget that and all i did was nod and tell her i love you back

he let a hit out

raskel: i woke up that next morning the house was quiet it was weird because she was always up early already cleaning doing her thing so i went to check on her thinking she had left or something .. she was dead she overdosed

luna: how do you know she did?

raskel: she had the pills in her hand i called my tia in a panic she came over hid them cleaned her up and called 911 ... i was just left in the background .. like nothing

she hugged him as he smoked and looked at the stars ..