Mind Games

Chapter 11

I stormed into the bedroom and kicked off my shoes. I tried so hard to fight back tears but they were too strong to control. My heart felt like someone was trying to rip it out of my chest. I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't control it. I broke down crying and threw myself onto the bed. I was lost. I lost everyone that I ever loved. I lost my best friend, I lost the only one that I've ever loved. I lost my family, I left them. I was surrounded by people that I didn't even know, they were strangers to me. I sat on the bed with my head in my palms when there was a knock on the door. It was Katrina. "Cole. Are you OK?" She said in that sweet voice of hers. I didn't look up. She walked over to me and sat down. She placed her hand on my shoulder. I jerked away. "I don't know what Damien said to you, but whatever it was I'm sorry." She said. She didn't understand. No one did. "He said it was my fault that my dad was dead. He said my best friend was fucking my girlfriend, or whatever she is to me now. He said that I left my family and I didn't. Whoever is trying to kill me, or capture me, or whatever they want with me isn't out to get my family and friends. They're out to get me. I don't know what Damien's intentions of triggering my powers were, but he took it way too far. I'm sorry Katrina, I was in over my head. I can't do this. I'm sorry." I looked up and looked at her. My eyes watered, and a single tear rolled down my cheek. Katrina looked at me speechless, she didn't say anything. She placed her hand on my hand. She smiled. "Damien did all that to trigger you, and maybe he went about the wrong way to doing it. But he did it, your family and friends in danger are your trigger. You're afraid of losing this girl, that's your trigger. Use all of that, and you'll do just fine." She smiled. "But how, Katrina. Every time I think about all that, it hurts." I said. "Anger is stronger than pain. Use all of that emotion and switch it to anger. Adrenaline will kick in and you'll be in control. I have faith in you, if I didn't I wouldn't have brought you back to Damien. You have to believe in yourself, that's the only way you're going to get through this and learn how to control your powers." She smiled. I took a deep breath. She was right, I needed to learn how to switch that pain into anger. I wiped the tears away. Just as I calmed down, Damien stormed into the room. "Where is he?" He said walking towards me. I stood up walking up to Damien but he came back forcing me to walk backwards until I came to a hault. Damien had me up against the wall. "What makes you think you can walk out of a training session like that?" He asked, his voice remaining calm. Everyone stood at the door, confused as to what was going on. Katrina stood up and walked over to Damien. She tried getting him to get off, but he didn't budge. "I was pissed off. I couldn't do it anymore I'm sorry." I said, surrendering. "That's the point. I had to piss you off to find your trigger." Damien said. "I know, and I'm sorry. It won't happen again." I said. Damien eased up and took a step back. He cleared his throat before speaking. "Well then, I guess I made my point. Tomorrow we will start back up in the gym. I think we've both had enough for today. What do you say?" He looked at me and smiled. "Yeah I would say so." I smiled back. He gave me a pat on the back and turned around to see everyone cramming in the doorway to see what was going on. "Alright, nothing to see here. Get back to your work." He shooed everyone out of the doorway and walked out. Everyone groaned in disappointment, clearly looking to see a fight between Damien and I. I exhaled a deep breath and sat on the bed. Katrina sat down next to me. "Just remember he's doing this to help you." Katrina smiled. She stood up and took a deep breath. "I'll let you get some rest. Dinner is at 7 o'clock. I'll meet you in the kitchen then. She turned towards the door and walked out leaving me alone to my thoughts. The same words Katrina had said to me kept replaying over and over again in my head. "Anger is stronger than pain. Your family and friends in danger is your trigger." I lay down on the bed and closed my eyes. This was all too much right now. I couldn't think anymore.