im not dumb

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Trigger warning- eating disorder, drug use, talk of miscarriage.

Fayth's pov

I walk into school holding hands with luke and go up to the rest of the boys with him.

One of them smells like pot. But i cant tell which one it is. Then i realized its ashton. Because cal only smokes cigarettes from time to time. And mikey would never smoke anything.

We walk into chemistry and the calum and mikey start asking about brianna.

I take this time to text ashton.

Fayth- why do you smell like weed? Dont lie because you your house smelt like it when me and bri were there.

Ashton- I dont know what you're talking about

Fayth- ash.. I'm not dumb. You can tell me. I'm not a snitch.

Ashton- okay. Then yes I've been smoking pot.

Fayth- can I ask why

Ashton- because I've been really stressed over brianna losing the baby. And it's really been getting to me. I'm so upset over it

Fayth- I completely understand.

Ashton- thanks that means alot

Fayth- so I heard smoking weed can help with losing weight. Is that true?

Ashton- yes it is true.

Fayth- can I smoke with you?

Ashton- sure! I've been looking for a smoking buddy

Fayth- alright does after school work?

Ashton- yup! I'll drive u to my place.

After school Fayth's pov still

My eating disorder has been getting so much worse these fast few weeks. I feel disgusting just by looking at food. I feel like I'm so fat. I will never be pretty enough or skinny enough. Hopefully smoking weed helps me.

We pull up to Ashton's house and ho inside. We go up to his room and he pulls of the blunts. He explains how to smoke it.

After smoking a little bit of the blunt, I feel funny. I feel like everything is funny. And I start laughing at random shit.

Ashton starts to laugh too.

Hey Ashton? I ask

Yea? He replies and giggles

Do you think I can regularly smoke with you? I ask

Fuck yes! That would be great! He replies

We continue to smoke and laugh. I finally start to feel a little tired. So I tell ash and I go on the couch in the living room and fall asleep

Ashton's pov

I think fayth's eating disorder is getting worse. That's probably why she wants to smoke with me. So she can lose weight. I hope it's not though. I want her to stay healthy. But I'm okay with having a little fun for now. I'll stop providing weed if she gets worse with the eating disorder.




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