Tears Of the Lynx

Chapter 5

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(ASH POV) ~PRESENT DAY~
Today has definitely had its toll on me. I mistook 3 different people for Eiji today. Since I became a gang leader I have sharpened my instincts overtime. People close to me know that I can depict a person based off their footstep speed and volume. And just overall sense a certain person. Today I felt like I sensed Eiji around me, but every time I looked around me no one resembled the short, dark haired, japanese boy that I held dearly in my heart. These 3 encounters have gotten my hopes up and made me feel so close to him and he wasn't there. He we the only person that loved me unconditionally my whole life. Everyone expects something out of me and it continues to be like that. Eiji was my light, and no matter how far he is his light shines on my heart. These encounters had me in an extremely depressive mood. I started walking to the bar ready to put myself over the edge and forget about all my problems.

~HORRIBLY TRANSITIONED TIME SKIP TO THE BAR ;)~

I just got to the bar around 15 minutes ago and i alr downed 4 drinks. I don't know what to do to help me forget him. "I really will love him forever, won't I ?" I ask myself silently. I scratched that thought to avoid becoming more depressed over it. I knew I'd love him forever and there was no point in getting depressed over it right now in the middle of the bar. After half an hour of drinking a sketchy figure walks in. This figurative male is carrying things with him to a bar which was pretty out of the ordinary. I hide behind a nearby pilar out of instinct and watch the man from a far. This sketchy man puts down a bouquet of flowers along with an envelope. After he stands there for a while I get curious and walk swiftly behind him hoping he won't notice i'm watching him. He turned around after I walked behind but he didn't seem to notice me. The suspicious boy then walks out the door of the bar looking unsteady about something. I brush it off and hurry over to the bar counter top where he placed the items to take a look at what he had left on the bar table. Ik this isn't my place to be looking at others information but I was almost blackout drunk that I couldn't even think for myself. I almost instantly start to feel tears and screams build up inside of me. I lose all rationality and begin crying as I read out the first two words on the outside of the envelope "Dear Ash,". Just reading the rest of the note broke my heart to pieces. I hoped this was from Eiji. No- I KNEW this was from Eiji. Just the way he wrote comforted me. I knew his words. And i know now that the suspicious man was none other then my Eiji Okumura. As i get towards the end of the letter  I am already crying unable to process words any longer. My crying was bringing attention to me so I knew I needed to get out quickly. Just as i begin to walk out a figure comes through the entrance.

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