The same old life

The Same Old Boring life

Isn't it funny how the people you love will leave you so fast. I don't know what I was ever thinking falling for him. They say love makes you do stupid things. But after it just made me empty, I let my guard down and it is a lesson I will never forget. This is my story the ups and downs. The story of Brittany Scott.
He said that he would always love me. And now I'm left to lay, alone. It all started in grade ten, I was always suicidal, I would always get through my thoughts by art, my teacher would always suggest therapist's for me but I would never tell my mother. Of course my mom new I was upset about life and she always tries to go out with me, and make me realize how beautiful life really is. Let's just say it never worked. I never had friends in school, they always had a hate for me, ever since grade five. My life is just like any other ordinary life, I wake, I go to school, and think about my depressing thoughts. I watch the movies and see the happy endings and know it's all just a lie.
Today it was different this new boy Shaun Grawford, came and sat next to me. Was a boy actually talking to me? Out of all the girls in the class me? Not only did he sit next to me he talked to me and hung out with me for the rest of the day! As days turned into weeks and weeks into months, finally grade ten graduation came! You already know who my date was, yup Shaun. We hung out all through out high school, when I was feeling depressed he cheered me up. He was the only one who knew about my situation, my father the abusive drunk and my mother the one who hides from her fears and the psychopath. My family was messed up and would take it out on me, but Shaun would let me stay over at his place when thugs got tuff. I had someone to rely on. The middle of grade 12 year Shaun was rushed to the hospital in the night, there was one secret he had never told me, when he was ten he was diagnosed with lung cancer and as it turns out the cancer was not only in his lungs this time but in his brain. He was suffering for weeks but yet I would still see him everyday after school. Nothing changed at home but after school was my favourite part, I would sit through the loneliness and the painful moments but it was all worth it at the end of the day seeing him.
Then one day after school when I went to visit him and tell him how I was accepted into an art show, I saw his room was empty and all I say was a note that read " dear Brittany, I have always loved you and I will never stop. I will watch down on you everyday from where I am now, I have been sent to gods garden. Where I will live a peaceful life I will miss you and I will always be reminded of you. I never want you to forget about me. I remember the first day I met you, you were sitting alone in the back of the class and I saw how happy you were to see me sit next to you! I want to remind you that every Saturday look out your window and you will see a blue butterfly with three black stripes on each wing, that is me watching over you on earth. I will love you forever more, Shaun Crawford." As I swept away my tears from my beat red face a niece approached me and said "He is gone now, his last words were tell Brittany I love her. he asked us that when he die we leave this note for you and he has also given us this sweater for you." That sweater was the one he was wearing when we first met it was love at first sight, but it all ended in the blink of an eye. Every Saturday I would look out my window and sure enough I saw the butterfly at looking at me, I would sit there for hours talking to it, all for closure. Life went back to its normal ways after that and just before graduation I thought about commuting suicide, think I would be able to see Shaun again, I would be lifted from these shackles. My life would be easier. But then I looked at the note he had left for me and it said " p.s I know you will have tough times ahead but I never want you to harm yourself, let that be the only favour I have ever asked for." I read it over and over again I would wear the sweater all that night I was balling my eyes out. But they say when you love them let them go. I always ask my self, why does God take the best people and my mother hears me and says when you go to a garden what flowers do you pick?"
That has been my painful years of my life. I feel so much stronger now that those days are gone. My father was taken out of my mothers and my life and since then we have been only happy.
~ Brittany Scott