Set Free

Set Free Chapter Twenty-Nine

Chapter Twenty-Nine

I sat alone in my room, on the verge of tears. Nick was the cause, this was the effect. I wanted to hate him, I truly did, for lying to me like he did. But I didn't. I couldn't. Because the truth was, my feelings for him, were already stronger than I could've ever known they would be.

And now I sat there, entirely unsure of what to do. Should I go to him? Or should I keep away, in case he really did die?

Which would hurt more? I wondered.

I already knew the answer. But this, it really wasn't about me. It was about Nick, and it was about the fact that if I didn't tell him how I truly about him, once and for all, I knew, I was positive, that I would regret it for my entire life.

And coming to that conclusion, in my mind, left one single path open. So I embraced that path, took it with strides of fear and impossible hope.

The decision had taken my serveral hours, and it was already about eleven o' clock at night. That wasn't going to stop me. I sneaked out, for the very first time that night, but I knew it was for a good cause. I would gladly take any punishment given to me later on.

My only choice of transportation was my car, so I had to deal with the fact that I was going to make some noise in order to leave. I painstakingly tiptoed to my car, hopping in and closing the door noiselessly behind me. I thrust my car key into the slot quickly, my heart thudding in my chest. The car started without fail, and thanked God as I kissed my palm and laid on the steering wheel. I was on my way.

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I had two choices. I could either turn around right now, in the hospital parking lot, or sneak up to Nick's hospital room. I knew the latter would not be easy, but I had to see him. I had to.

I took a deep breath as a pulled on the door handle, letting myself out of the car with ease. I hid my face with hand as I sprinted to the side of the building, hoping that no one saw me. I finally reached the door, I swore under my breath as I realized that it was locked from the inside. What was I going to do now?

Suddenly, I heard the sound of rolling wheels approaching me, and I ducked around the corner of the building. I took a moment to gather my remaining courage, and I peeked around the corner just to see a cart with what looked to be medical supplies being rolled into the hospital. It took my only ten seconds to form a plan as yet another cart appeared in my vision. I ran like lightning, fueled by adrenaline, to the side of the cart, moving cautiously with it. And just like that, I was in.

I kept up the pace of the cart for a minute, and then ducked into a nearby storage closet. My heart was beating so loud I felt like anyone in the building would be able to hear it. Oh, the things we do for love. Wait....what? Love? No,....I only liked Nick, right? But....it was stronger than simply 'liking' him. I knew this. But, was it love? I chided myself. Was it possible to love someone I'd only known for a a few months? I gulped. I knew I was wasting my time here thinking in that closet, but I felt like I had to come to some sort of a conclusion before I continued to make my way to Nick.

Because that was the reason I was here. To tell Nick how I felt about him. But how did I feel? I knew that I felt something for him, something strong. But I'd forgotten that I was unsure what the name it was, because it was something that was so....different than the way I'd felt about anyone else before. Even Justin. Especially Justin. I'd loved Justin. I was in love with Justin. But now I barely thought about him anymore. And Nick....he was amazing. I shook my head violently, I needed to go, but yet I needed to make a final decision.

What should I do? I wondered aimlessly. Then I heard a noise outside the small room and I jumped. I would have to have to make my choice on the way to his room.