Simp for me.

Well. Do you or not?

I woke up to no notifications from Corpse, I was hoping he would say something to me about the videos, but I suppose nothing was better than rejection.

I'm not very hungry in the morning, so I just decided to stay in my bed and play on my phone, I also worked on my laptop, but mostly just played on my phone.

"Syd simping for Corpse for everyone to see"

I blushed as I saw who liked it, Corpse. I was glad he acknowledged it without saying anything like "we're just friends" or "it's not simping if you're friends."

Sean
Simping for Corpse for everyone to see huh?

Syd
Sean I swear you see stuff before I do, stalker

Sean
You're just oblivious. We're playing again tonight if you wanna join, I'm sure your fans would like a stream

Syd
I can't risk having my face show how much I'm blushing when I talk to Corpse, have to learn to control that first.

It was the truth, there's no way I could stream while he still had such an effect on me, I get way too flustered, I talk to myself about him when we're muted, if anyone heard that I would die of embarrassment.

"Eat something, bitch!" I rolled my eyes as Henry shouted to me, how did he even know I was awake? His room is on the complete other side of the house.

Corpse
Good morning Syd :)

I blushed at his message, I don't know if he sends good morning texts to everyone, but I hope he doesn't. Makes it more special for me!

Syd
Good morning Corpse! Did you get any sleep? :)

Corpse
Same as usual, you?

Syd
I slept okay, took me a while to fall asleep though I dunno why

Corpse
Well, you can always talk to me, we can call next time we both have trouble going to sleep :)

My eyes widened at the sudden jump for us, calls? Already? I can only imagine falling asleep with him on the phone, his quiet snores, how soft his features would be. What if you fell asleep to his voice? Imagine him reading you a bedtime story, how relaxing that would be, I would fall asleep in 5 minutes.

Syd
I'm down to call anytime :)

I hoped that wouldn't come off as too desperate, but it was the truth, I was so ready to hear his voice literally any chance I got.

I waited for a message, eventually realizing that it could be a while before I got one back, and decided to make lunch.

I raided the fridge, confused firstly, to why we have no food, and secondly, what am I supposed to eat for lunch if we have no food?

"Henry, it's your turn." I said, knocking on his bedroom door gently, I went shopping a couple weeks ago, it's his turn to go now.

"I'm going, I gotta get dressed. Do you wanna come?" I quickly declined him, today was not the day for me to be going in public. My anxiety was already a bit bad today, so I wanted to stay out of anymore situations that would make it worse.

Corpse
Anytime? :)

I tried to find a response, something that would make sense, but at the same time, encourage him to call me without being desperate. What a sticky balance.