Simp for me.

I'm Here.

Corpse
3 hours

I looked at the message nervously, I wasn't ready to meet him and I knew it, but my heart raced at the idea of it anyway. My mind filled with wander, all I could do once he's here.... kiss him, cuddle with him for real, hear him read a book to me for real, the possibilities are endless.

He was messaging me every hour with new time updates, which I appreciated because I had to meet him at Jenna and Juliens house and if I didn't have the time updates I would've completely forgot to go.

"I'll be back later tonight." I said a nervous goodbye to Henry, Sean had already left unfortunately, but I was probably gonna call him on the way there, have some consoling from him.

"Please be safe, if you need me, call. Remember, I love you and he will too."

It takes 2 hours to get from my house to Jenna's house, so I had to leave now just in case the traffic is any worse than usual, which for LA, it's always terrible.

"Nervous."
"Me too baby, but it'll be okay."
"What if you don't like me?"
"I like you now, why would that change?"
"I don't know....but maybe it will."

I only talked to Corpse for a few minutes, he had to film with Julien, so he didn't have much time. But I appreciated it because I needed some time alone to think.

What if he thinks I smell bad? What if he thinks I'm ugly? He's already seen me....but still! What if he thinks I'm ugly?! What if he thinks my lips aren't kissable and he doesn't want to kiss me? What if I try to kiss him and he rejects me? What if I reject him? Okay let's be honest, I would never reject him.

"You have to stop thinking about it. You've already basically been dating, there's hardly a difference."
"Hardly a difference?! It's our first time meeting in real life! Online is different and we are not basically dating!"
"Yeah okay, lie to yourself if you want to. But just try to calm down, you don't stink, you aren't ugly, he's gonna love you."
"You don't know that. You don't know what's going to go through his mind when he sees me, what if he wants to throw up?"
"I know I did."
"Bitch."

I continued talking with Sean, even his fake insults calming me down. He left a few weeks ago, we made sure to call at least once every few days, he was busy, but he always made time for me.

I sat in traffic and looked at my phone, still an hour away. I have been to Jenna and Julien's without Corpse there, I was pretty good friends with Jenna, even before Julien came into the picture.

Syd to Jenna
I'll be there in like an hour, is Bunny up because of Corpse?

I know Bunny is a bit weird about newcomers, so Jenna puts her up just to be on the cautious side, but I wanted to play with her. Bunny and Marbles are my favorite, I like petting Marbles, and Bunny is so funny!

Jenna
Yeah, I can get her out once you're here though. She'll be distracted with you

I smiled and nodded, putting my phone back down as Sean continued talking to whoever he was in the room with, I'm not sure, but I could hear his background conversation.

His presence was to keep me calm and it did, just hearing his voice calmed me down further than I could ever calm myself down. Moments like these make me even more thankful for my friends, my closest ones.

"Sean, I'm gonna go, I wanna listen to music. Thank you for listening."
"Of course, I love you! Call me if you need anything!"
"I will! I love you!"

I turned on Harry Styles, doing a small dance as I continued driving, traffic was worse today, but it was whatever, I wasn't in too much of a rush anyway...I was so nervous.