Angelic Devil

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[AYANE]

I am busy with my thing. What thing? May secret job. Remember what job did I told you before? Yung nga requested drawing then babayaran nila ako. Yun ang ginagawa ko ngayon.

"Uhm.. Blue Eyes or Violet?" This is the part that I like the most. Giving my character an eyes. They look cute with those uncommon eye color.

Plus the eye shows the emotions. Kahit mata lang ang idrawing mo ay maipapakita mo na agad ang emotions nila.

"You're good." I was shocked nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

Agad akong napatayo at tinignan ang nasa likod ko.

Ivan was standing there. Uhm. Parang may nagbago sakanya? Pero di ko makita kung ano yun.

"WHO GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO ENTER MY ROOM?!" I shout at him.

He just raise his two hands as if getting arrested. "Woah! What's with the loud voice? Don't shout GirlFriend." He said in a fearless way.

That's it! The thing that changed. There's no sign of fear on his eyes. And that made me

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Comfortable.

Call me weird. But I am comfortable with people who are not scared of me after knowing my Evil Side.

Napahinga ako ng malalim at bumalik sa kinauupuan ko kanina.

"Why are you here?" I ask him.

"Uhm.. I just want to tell you that I agree with that relationship thing."

"And in exchange?" Alam kong may kapalit. He's not that kind of guy who will agree just because he wanted to.

"You'll never be rude to Clarence."

Napakunot ang noo ko. "Why are you so protective with Dela Vega?"

"Because.... He's my friend. And it maybe sounds gay. But I don't want to see him that hurt. What happen to the both of you last wendnesday, that was the very first time I saw him cry. He's not the Clarence we know that time.

Yes, he maybe smiling when He is with us. But Happiness is different from smile. Happiness that we thought he felt when he's with us, but no. Happiness is what I saw when he's with you even you never did something to make him happy."

So he's doing this for the sake of his friend? Pss.. I don't know what friends means. Does it mean, giving yourself to the devil for your friend?

I guess having a friend isn't that bad.

"Pero di mo ba naisip na once ginawa ko yun ay magkakaron sya ng hope na magustuhan ko sya? At pagnalaman nyang ginawa mo to. He'll be hurt. You'll hurt him more than I did."

I heard him sigh. "Yeah. I knew that. But you can try to love him right?"

WHAT?! I will try to love him?! Doesn't he know that LOVE is not my thing? Ofcourse he did! He knew that I am heartless.

"What made you think that I will do that?"

"Uhm. Let me see.." His first words. That made me stop from what I am doing and look at him. He's holding his chin like he has a bright Idea. "That guy downstairs---"

Ow shoot! Alam naba nya? Alam man nya o hindi. I already cut him. "FINE!"

I said then I turn to face the monitor again. Tsk! This guy! I hate him.

"Nice. So, I have to go. Bye." That is his last words before he left.

Tss. He is the first person who threaten me. He is the first person who made me agree to a deal that I don't have benifit.

I unconcsiously for the lips of my character from frown. To smile.

I look the drawing I made. An angel fell inlove with a demon.

They both smiling to each other even they are both hurt.

This is the first time that I did not depend on eyes to show the emotion. But the lips did.

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Monday Morning. May pasok na ulit. Naiboblowry ko buhok ko nang maisip ko si Ivan. The way he threaten me, and what I did to threaten him.

Am I being too much? I even use his Friends name para lang pumayag sya? Teka! Pinagbantaan nya din ako ah. But it was different. He never tend to hurt others. Unlike me.

Tss. I shouldn't feel guilty. I am known as a heartless person.

Heartless...

Since when they start to call me heartless? Since the day that I was dumped by him? I am just afraid of getting hurt. And I thought pushing away my suitors is the best way to avoid myself from falling.

But in the end. Instead of pushing them away. I already bullying them.

Haaay.. Enough for reminiscing my cruelty.

*tok!tok!

Two knocks. It was him. Nung bata kami ay yun ang palatandaan namin kung sino ang kumakatok. No need to ask. Just knock twice.

I didn't bother to look when I heard myb door open.

"Aya?" I just look at him through the mirror. "Ako na maghahatid sayo sa school."

"Where's manong?" I ask.

"Namatay ang asawa ni Manong kaya pinauwi muna sya nina tita Aimie." Lumapit sya sa gamit ko sa kama at chineck ang bag ko.

Like what he's doing before..

"Kaya kong magcommute." Pagtanggi ko.

He close my back pack and put it on the table near him.

"No. May kotse naman kayo at isa pa, nabobored na ko." Sinasampay naman nya ngayon yung mga towel na ginamit ko. Si Luke talaga yung taong gusto ay maayos ang lahat. Galit yata sa libag yan e?

"Then better go back to California." I said as I turn off the blower.

He sigh. "Are you still mad?" Bakit malungkot boses nya? Kasalanan nya yun kung magalit man ako.

"No." Maikli kong sagot. I open a gum and threw it on my mouth. Uhm... Strawberry.

"Then why are you being so cold?"

I pick my bag and put it on mu back.

I laugh. "Cold eh? Diba patay lang naman ang malamig?"

I walk through the door. He's about to say something when I speak.

"Yeah. I am cold. Deadly Cold. Remember the day you dumped me and left me? That was The day I die." Then I left.

Am I mad? NO.

The Love that I felt for him is no Longer exist. What do I feel for him?

NOTHING ..

The Love and Anger were all vanished for the passed years. I don't feel anything. But I don't see him as a Stranger.

He's my cousin afterall.

Nothing less and Definitely NOTHING MORE..

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