Deceiving Destiny

Chapter 13: In Which Anna Wished to Stay Asleep Forever

Chapter 13: In Which Anna Wished to Stay Asleep Forever

Pulling the mint green sweater over my head proved to be too much work. My mind was elsewhere, thinking of where Blake would take me. I was glad for the distraction he'd offered, if I were to stay silent and keep on receiving the hateful glares I've been getting all day, I think I'll officially be admitted at the mental ward.

Anastasia and her friends were nowhere to be seen, I was both relieved and worried; relieved that they weren't there to torment me even more and worried that they were planning something.

I almost bumped my head at the ledge when my foot got stuck on my faded skinny jeans, I was that distracted. Cursing myself for my carelessness, I hurriedly wore the grey Vans and slung my bag on my shoulder- pushing all thoughts of Tyler and my adversary at the back of my mind- and swung open the door.

The sight of Nate's teal eyes glaring at me with so much disgust brought me back to reality, my earlier bliss long gone. He was still clad in all his glory, his dark brown hair styled to perfection, his lips as soft as I've seen it. I hadn't heard from him for the last three days, not even once did he try to contact me. Usually, I was the first one to apologize- suck up my pride and grovel at his feet- but this time, I hadn't done anything of the sort and I think we're both surprised at my tenacity, he was downright murderous.

I fidgeted and played nervously at the hem of my sweatshirt, looking anywhere but my boyfriend's fuming stare. He was making me feel like I've always felt, little and insecure.

"Too excited to go somewhere?" Nate growled, the venom in his voice was enough to make my inner goddess once again hide in the furthest corner of my tabularasa. "You did not even call or leave a text Madielyn, I was at least expecting an apology for your misdemeanor but I was surprised when you did nothing of the sort. You think you're so good just because your brother and that asshole is here, aren't you?!"

His words cut me deep, he never talked to me this way- never directly did anything to hurt me. I could count the number of times he disapproved of my behavior but none of them paramount to this, he was really mad at me.

I could feel my self once again slipping back to my cocoon, I was alone and afraid, no one will come to my rescue. I was starting to doubt my rationality, was it wrong of me to seek comfort in others when my boyfriend failed in that department? Was it wrong of me to expect Nate to choose me over his stuck up friends? Was it wrong of me to want to be happy for once?

"I expected so much from you Madielyn, you're my girlfriend, it wasn't presumptous of me to wish you'll act accordingly. You're nothing like this, you used to listen to my words but look at you now- it feels like I don't know you anymore."

I don't think it was possible to rip someone's heart over and over again and stepped over it for how many times you dared to wish, Nate always had a way with words and as those phrases sink into me, I realized what I failed to notice before: he is right, I'm gradually resorting back to my old self.

It was like the breath was knocked out off me, I feel suffocated, everything in me demanded to be out. I was having mixed feelings about that simple fact, happiness and revolt clashing against each other. The possibility of getting back the old me never did strike me, I always always hated those days- everything started from there. If not for Nate, I would've drowned from my pity self by then.

"Say you're sorry and I'll forgive you." Nate's soft voice brought me back to reality, he sounded resigned and I feel the tiny nip of guilt making its way to my heart. I have never heard him like this and I hated myself for doing this to him, he doesn't deserve me.

His harsh words rang in my head, fueling the suppressed anger I had in me, and as much as I wanted to act on it, I owe it to him to do otherwise. "I'm sorry." I relented.

His lips hungrily sought mine, his trembling hands pushing at the nape of my neck. I once again saw the lost boy I grew attached to a few years ago, I never thought I'll once again saw this side of him. Nate was so lost in his kiss that he didn't notice me freeze.

The sudden urge to weep overwhelmed me when Blake's emotionless face filled my vision, his once smiling face no more. He was watching us kiss, his onyx eyes growing darker and darker by the second. He gave me one last torturous glare before disappearing at the corridor, not once looking back at my direction.

I forcefully shut my eyes close, wanting to get lost in Nate's kiss, hoping to forget about everything that has happened. There were no fireworks in the kiss we'd shared and I think I deserved that, I'm a despicable person after all. Blake's anguish expression kept on popping inside my head and something in me hurt real bad. Feeling bold for once, I deepened the kiss and bury my fingers at Nate's brown hair, pulling him closer to me.

Nate pushed me gently away from him, a smile playing at his now swollen lips. "Easy Mads, if you don't want us to go to the next base, I suggest you slow down. Not that I'm complaining." He stole a kiss from me as he said that, lightly tracing my lips with his tongue.

His onyx eyes burned through me, smothering me in its flame. My heartbeat skyrocketed at the sight of his black disheveled hair, he's so beautiful. Blake was about to kiss me when I jolted awake, shame filling me.

"Are you alright Mads?" Nate asked worriedly. He doesn't need to know.

"Nothing." I shut him up with a kiss, cursing the day I was born, my mind filled with images of a certain bad boy.

Sorry for the late update. Ugh. Been busy with school and well, writer's block's being a bitch. I hope this chapter hasn't traumatized you. *evil laugh* Don't worry, I have something else in store, don't curse me please. :>

Anyway, anyone here who has wached FSOG? I so want to watch but it was sort of semi-band in my country, how pathetic can I be? T.T

As usual, tell me what you're thinking lovelies.
--- xoxo Nikki