NormanXEmma:Loving you || The Promised Neverland Fanfiction

Chapter 16

"I never expected to you stay up this late because of your duties. Were you like that, even on weekdays?"

The duo decided to talk, and seems like enjoying each other's presence.

"Well yeah, it's okay though, I enjoy somehow. Plus, it's a routine so it's not really a big deal anymore. "

He explained, his arms placed on the handrail of his balcony. Emma went silent for a bit, observing the white haired boy who is currently looking up at the stars and moon.

"I don't think so. No one would like to be in the same position like yours."

Norman's eyes widened a bit. He didn't expected that coming. But then, he smiled and bring back his composture like the usual, but his eyes says otherwise.

"What you do mean?"

"You're carrying everything on your shoulder on your own. I doubt you even tell Ray about what you really feel. We've been talking a lot since the day we went to the mall. I'm sorry that I kept observing you but you put all your best and leave nothing for yourself."

The meaning behind her words are legit. Norman couldn't speak. He perfected the art of lying but he can't bring himself to deny it in front of her. He remained silent so she decided to continue.

"It hurts right? Everyone expected so much from you. I'm not gonna say that what you're doing is wrong, but please, take care of yourself. If it's heavy, let it out. We are here for you. I'm here for you.  You don't have to act and be perfect when you are with me. Being just Norman is enough. Live and enjoy life. You don't have to burden them all that you almost forgot how it feels like to be a human."

He opened his mouth to say something but no words came out. Norman shifted his gaze on the girl besides him and got surprised.

She is crying.

He couldn't speak. She managed to see through the real him. The feelings and words he never managed to let out, Emma did it for him. It felt so warm to hear her words, like for the first time in his whole existence..

Someone cares for who I really am.

Yet he felt his chest being hit by a brick when he saw the girl he likes, crying.

"Omg why am I cryiing. Gomeeen. I'm just hurt, it's stupid but I don't know whyy. I-"

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Emma's POV

He's kissing me.

NORMAN JUST KISSED ME ON LIPS.

My eyes were wide open. I didn't know what to feel anymore because it felt like my heart's gonna come out from my chest anytime!

His lips were gently placed on mine, his slender fingers holding me still. His lips weren't moving at all. It's purely soft and it made my mind at peace, but never my heart.

'Maybe.. just maybe.. He likes me back.'

After seconds, he pulled away and I'm sure I looked like a living tomato!
His face were red as well. He let go of me, and gave ourselves a safe distance. None of us bothered to speak. We were both silent but I'm pretty sure my heart's way too loud that it feels like it will burst.

I bit my lip, trying to calm myself from what just happened.
Just hoooow..?? I'm so embarassed! How did I let that happen? He never told me he likes me!

When I thought of that, the temporary happiness my heart felt suddenly turned into sadness. I couldn't help it. It was never my intention to like him more than just being friends. I am close to Don. I am close with Ray as well. But I don't feel this 'thing' for them. It sounds weird because I want to treat them equally as friends, but my heart says something else.

It's badly aching for Norman and I don't know why.

"I'm deeply sorry about that Emma. I just.. got carried away."

Cracks.

Again, it's weird but what he just said hurted my feelings. What he said is what he felt and Norman seems genuine about that, but I'm hurt.
My mind tells me that it is okay, that even so, atleast Norman didn't lie. But my heart was just..

I felt my heart just broke.

So it was nothing? That was my first kiss, you stole it and it's nothing?

I am glad that he apologized and told me the truth, though I couldn't help but feel sadness swarming me. I won't lie. I am upset. I am hurt. I even feel tears started forming.

because I am expecting something when we kissed. I expected he kissed me because he likes me. That it wasn't just a 'spur of moment'.

After what just happened, I realized one thing. I liked Norman, even before. My prideful mind isn't in favor of these feelings. But for now, I decided to believe in my heart.

I am falling in love with him.