We've all been lost and now I think I've found my way (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 4: It's a new start.

Chapter 4: It's a new start.

The sun was beginning to set now and the cool breeze tickled everyone's bare skin. Everyone had been in the pool all day and eating food from the barbecue, I'd chosen not to go in the pool though and chilled on one of the sun loungers close to the edge of it instead. I don't think it had gone unnoticed that I'd chosen not to swim with the guys and Vicky but I really didn't want them to know that I'm a terrible swimmer when I'd only been back with them for a few hours. I knew I would just embarrass myself in front of them all if I got in there and I just couldn't handle it if I done that.

It was almost dark now and we decided to light a fire to keep us all warm for a while. There were 4 blankets set out close to the fire but I didn't really know where to sit, I was kinda feeling out of place at the minute since they all knew each other like the back of their hand and well I didn't really know them and they didn't know me. I'm not the most confident person in the world and that was beginning to show I guess, I just hope they didn't think I was being ignorant it was just that I didn't know what to speak to them about. My Dad and Brian sat on one looking deep in conversation, Vicky and Arin on another and Zacky and Johnny took the third, I decided that I didn't want to intrude on any of them and took the final blanket and snuck off into the house.

I made my way to the living room and threw myself down onto the sofa with a sigh. I was pretty tired by now and just wanted some time to relax on my own. I had no idea where my room was so this would have to do, it was big and comfy after all.

It hit me now though that I would have to start a new school here but I suppose that would be after summer since there was only a month left untill the summer break began. I'm just pleased that I won't be alone there, hopefully Vicky would let me hang around with her and her friends. I'd left all my other friends behind in LA but I'm sure if they really wanted to see me they'd make an effort to get in touch and to be honest I couldn't see that happening, they never made any effort to stay friends with someone when they moved away it was just easier that way I suppose.

I began to think of a whole lot of things after that I didn't know how long I'd actually been lying here on the sofa until I heard footsteps next door in the kitchen along with voices. It was my Dad and Brian and they were talking about me. I could hear them getting closer and with that I quickly lay on my front and crossed my arms to lay my head on them, I didn't want any awkward questions to come up about why I was in here so I choose to go with the option of pretending to be asleep.

"I'll check the living room Matt, she's probably in there." I heard Brian say.

"Yeah sure man I'll be there in a minute" the footsteps got closer and I could now feel Brian's presence in the room. I tried to make it as believable as possible that I was asleep. I heard more footsteps and gathered that my dad had followed Brian into the room also.

"Jeez man she's asleep on the sofa. I never even thought to ask her if she was tired, I haven't even shown her her room yet. Fuck! She's only been here a few hours and she's already gone off and sat on her own, what if she thinks I don't want her? What am I going to do?"

"Calm down Matt she'll have just been tired, it's been an eventful day for her and she probably thought she was bothering you if she asked where her room was. You've got to remember she's 16 as well they often just want some alone time to think about things, look at Vicky she practically lives in her room some days." Brian told my dad.

"Yeah I suppose Syn, I just want her to know that I'm here for her though if she ever needs anyone. I'd hate for her to keep anything bottled up inside. I've missed almost her whole life I just want to spend time with her. I care about her more than anything else in this world." Hearing my dad say this made me emotional, I've never had anyone make me feel like this. My mom never gave a shit about me and to know that he really means this let's me know that I'll never be alone. I don't care if I've only been back in his life for a few hours I love my dad and the rest of the avenged family.