We've all been lost and now I think I've found my way (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 6: The Time Is Right.

Chapter 6: The Time Is Right.

Lexie's POV:

Why did I accept the offer to go to uncle Zacky's house tonight? I know I'm going to feel out of place again or be hounded by a million questions off the guys, either way it's going to be like torture! Yeah, I get that they're happy for me to be back and I'm so happy to be here to but I just need a moment to breathe at times. I don't mean it to sound ungrateful at all but I just wish I could have some space.

Me and my dad still hadn't really had much of a chance to talk yet either since I'd spent the day in my room avoiding everyone, I wasn't really in the mood to be asked loads of questions about my personal life yet. All I wanted at the moment was a bit of time to settle in around everyone else again but no, I have to know that I'll be going on vacation soon with everybody where I'll most likely embarrass myself in the pool since I can't avoid going in one forever. Just great!

I find it strange how when I lived with my mom up to just a few days ago I was so carefree, confident and loud. I didn't give a shit about what I done and what people thought of me, I lived my life by doing whatever the fuck I wanted if I thought it was going to make me happy. Where as now I'm at my dads and around people I barely know anymore I'm coming across as shy, quiet and reserved which is the total opposite of the real me. I just can't seem to change how I'm acting and well I'm feeling pretty fucking boring , I dare to even think what anyone else thinks about me right now...

I just hope this weekend surprises me and turns out to be amazing instead of me dreading it and wishing it would just be over with...

I suppose though the time is right to get myself included in the family again and try to change my attitude back to normal!

Matts POV :

I'd called up to Alexia 3 times now, what was she playing at? We were supposed to be setting off for Zacky's house 15 minutes ago. I was wanting to be there a little bit earlier than everyone else so Alexia could have some time to get used to his house before everybody else arrived. I thought that it would make her feel a bit more comfortable as well so she wasn't just walking into a house full of people again.

We'd all noticed that she was shutting herself off from everyone, the only person she had really spoken to was Zack but she had always been really close with him when she used to visit here. They were almost inseparable. When Val stopped letting her visit me Zacky was upset as much as I was, he acted like a dad to her too. I was only 15 when Alexia was born but the guys were there for me so much, they loved having somebody to call their niece. We were only young but they spoiled her so much then Val moved away just after Alexia's first birthday and would only let me see her in the summer until she completely stopped her visiting when she was five. I wasn't allowed to have any contact with my daughter at all, I missed almost all the important milestones for her growing up but I thought of her everyday and never stopped loving her. We were all determined to make a living so if I did get to see her again I could spoil her rotten and make her the happiest girl alive and that's when the band really took off.

Just look at where I am today though I have my beautiful daughter back with me, the guys, the band and anything I've ever dreamt of. So in a way I could thank Val because if she hadn't left I maybe wouldn't be where I am today without her doing what she did, I just wish I'd got to see my little girl grow up though.

I chose not to shout on her again and walked up to her bedroom to see why she was taking so long. I reached the door to see it slightly open and knocked on it lightly before stepping in. No wonder she hadn't heard me shouting she was laying on her bed with her eyes closed and headphones on. She was just being your typical teenager I guess, Brian's always saying that Vicky's in her room with her music so loud the whole house can hear it.