Of course I am worried.
I am worried every day about what will happen and how I will do. I calm myself down and think how everything will be alright if I am calm and collected, but I still think about it, and the sooner the problem comes the more nervous I become. It either ends with me being disappointed or with me being happy and telling myself ,,See, you can do it".
Even now I am anxious. Anxious about tomorrow. I am aware that it is easy, but I just need more time. I need a bit more time to figure it out. Now that I am writing this, I remember what I am capable of. I just need to calm down, think about it and do it a few times.
I have to think positively. I can do it, I will do it. I just need to close my eyes and remember why I am doing this, why I was who I was, and why I am where I am. Sure, I may not be doing what others are, but that is because I am not like them. They are just they, but in reality not everyone is alike. For some it takes a bit of time to do something, for some it takes a whole day.
I wonder about you, whoever you are. How are you spending your day, what is your life like, what is your dream?
There are so many people in the world, no matter the religion or sexuality. You can be of same color or even last name, but each person is different. Different combination of liking and dreams, the way one looks at the world.
I am interested, how you deal with problems, what are your everyday thoughts.. We all hide something ,,unusual" in ourselves. Some show it more, some don't. Some are more comfortable or safe with keeping it hidden. It may hurt, it may not. Depends. Even so, I wonder... what is your story?
