For each human being , their situation is always the worst . Even knowing someone's hardships in life , it changes nothing .
Feeling of being lost in confusion , in the middle of delusion . It was all so familiar to me .
Felling of wanting to
Scream
Shout
Run
Felling of wanting to be held .
To be pat on your head with reassuring words following .
To have someone by your side ...
I felt like I was going insane ...
Alone in a very dark place , where no one could get to me ...
I felt pain , sadness , sorrow ...
I felt like ... a nobody
Like ... I didn't belong there ...
Since they appeared in my life , I felt really happy .
Even if whenever I just thought about them , something bad happened . Even though I don't want to admit it , it was truth ...
When something bad happened , I would always turn toward them ... Their voices were soo soothing ... soo ... calming ... The most beautiful voices you could ever hear .
They were , the most beautiful creatures you could ever see . Not even the most beautiful god could overcame their beauty , for me ...
But slowly , just thinking about them , I felt sadness ...
Just looking at them , I felt pain ...
Just hearing their voices ... I felt sorrow ...
I would feel like crying , that pain in my chest was always stronger and stronger .
But , I wouldn't cry ...
I wanted to be strong for myself ... For them ...
Even so , even if they were my saviours , but my destroyers .
I still loved them ...
And I always will ...
Always and Forever
