Love ... One word ...
Countless emissions and pain ...
I still remember ...
The way I used to look at you ...
I knew you since before ,
But
I didn't seem to notice ...
I ... Didn't notice my feelings ....
Even so ...
Why am I in pain ?
I feel ... pain ... in my chest ...
It is piercing like knifes ...
Actually , no . . .
It is just a pain ...
That can't be ...
Healed ...
I knew that ...
You didn't feel the same ...
I was still happy
Because
You were my best friend
I still smiled ,
When I saw you smiling ...
Just hearing your voice ,
Made me feel warm ...
It was my cure ,
But also my poison ...
Because it didn't take me long
To realize the reason why ...
You always had that wide ...
Smile on your face ...
But , I was happy ...
Because you were happy ...
I smiled , not just because you
Were smiling ...
But to prove to myself that I ...
Was strong ...
That I ... Was okay ...
That I ... Didn't actually have those feelings toward you ...
It may have helped a bit ...
But later on , it all came to me unexpectedly ...
The pain ...
As much as I fought
With it ....
Nothing would change ...
I knew I wouldn't
stand a chance ...
I knew ...
How you felt ...
So I decided to
Look at you from afar ...
To love you ...
From afar ... By myself ...
Some things are meant ,
To be kept a secret ...
And some things ,
Were meant to die in loneliness ...
In pain ...
In sorrow ...
In loneliness ...
In beautiful disaster ....
Why are you walking away like that ...
Turning your back toward
me ..
Couldn't you see ...
That I needed someone ...
That I needed ...
You ...
I know that it is
My fault ...
For keeping loving you ,
Even if I knew the truth ...
But ,
Then again ,
Love can't be helped ,
Can it ?
Why do I keep loving you ,
Even though I know
I will get hurt ...
