Inside my head is a real war ...
When I close my eyes , I can see myself in a corner of a room .
It used to be dark , but not anymore ...
It is now light actually ...
But it does not feel like that on the inside .
It is really hard to tell what I feel ...
Happy ? Angry ? Sad ?
I don't really know anymore ...
I thought it was this at the moment , that at the moment .
I am not even numb ...
At some point , I started seeing reflection of me ...
As if looking at myself will make me realize something ...
Something important I forgot ...
Or parphas ... someone ...
I know that I keep looking in my own eyes ...
Do I need to see something ...
I ... forgot ... ?
Is it something from past life ?
That is the only thing that makes sense ...
Makes sense ...
Nothing makes sense , but at the same time , everything makes sense ...
Confusing , isn't it ?
I feel like I needed to tell someone something ...
Like I said many things ,
but that something ...
Even though it is like that when I close my eyes or look far away ,
I still find myself wanting to continue doing so ...
I escape from one place ,
Not to feel trapped ,
But end up in another ,
Being trapped ...
The weird thing is that
I enjoy it in a way .
I feel alone ,
but again not ...
Is it because deep inside I have memories of someone ?
Were they my friends ?
Are there more people actually ...
More than one ... ?
Sometimes , it takes only one person to make you happy .
I hope it is them ,
I always wanted friends
If it came to situation like this ,
That means that they were special ...
