Who am I without you?

I'll Admit It

The next few days went by quickly. Mostly thanks to Ayani's treatments. They lasted most of the day and after she had made it through that first night, Katara let Kya do the medical work. She was a master healer and was more than able to take care of her herself.

They both spent the week in the healing chambers together alone. Other than the day that she was pulled out of the water, Ayani didn't see anyone other than Kya, who avoided questions about where they were other than telling her that they were taken to the nearest city that could provide the proper care for her.

"Kya, I'm fine." Ayani insisted as her wife tried to help her off the cot. "Not only has it been a month since I got hurt, but I've been doing nothing but healing the past week. I can walk to the bathroom by myself."

Kya sighed. "Are you sure you're okay? I can always just brush your teeth for you."

"I think I can manage love." She rolled her eyes. At some point, she was going to have to let it go. She grabbed Kya and pulled her close. "I will tell you every day for the rest of our lives if I have to. This was not your fault." She kissed her softly.

"It is...I can't unsee what I saw that day...I was so afraid that I lost you." She started tearing up. "I almost killed you, all because I was too proud, how is that not my fault?"

Ayani punched Kya's arm as she took a step away from her. "It was a freak accident. It was my ice that I fell on. I should have gotten rid of it before continuing the fight, if this is anyone's fault it's mine."

Kya rubbed her arm. She knew it was an accident, she didn't want to be dwelling on it forever, but how was she supposed to let it go? The nightmares alone were unbearable and even though Ayani was alive and almost back to 100%...they didn't go away.

Ayani walked to the bathroom to brush her teeth. Today was finally the day that they got to leave. They could go home and everything could go back to normal. Maybe they could even do a small vacation wherever they were before they left, god knows she needed one after all of this chaos. She was just excited to get outside and test her stamina.

Kya leaned in the doorway with a cloth bag over her shoulder. "I got all of our stuff, you ready to grace the world with your presence again?" She said with a smile.

"If that's what you want to call it." Ayani looked in the mirror. Her hair was a mess and she lost weight that she didn't have to lose. It wasn't as noticeable as she thought it was though. She just felt a lot less put together than usual, it's strange when time passes without you knowing. "I look like shit." She said.

Kya scrunched her face in disapproval. "Don't you talk about my wife like that." She grabbed Ayani's hand and kissed it.

"You're biased babe. You have to love me." Ayani said as she rolled her eyes.

Kya laughed. "I don't have to, I choose to. Now come on we have to get going. Throw your hair up in that sexy messy bun on top of your head and let's go."

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After an hour of trying to feel presentable, they were finally able to leave. The sun was brighter than Ayani remembered and it instantly gave her a headache.

"Where to first?" She asked excitedly as they stood outside the door. All she saw in front of her was the ocean. God had she missed the open water.

Kya looked at her confused. "Well we're going home, aren't we? Unless you planned on start traveling again."

She shrugged. "Well, I was hoping we could check out the city before we go. I want to see where we are and meet the woman who helped you save my life." She wasn't sure why Kya was in such a rush to leave.