Strings of Regret

Chapter 21

I covered my face with the duvet as what happened earlier tonight flashed back my mind. Did I just confess that I love him? Finally? Gosh! How embarrassing!

Ibinaba ko nang konti ang duvet ng maalala ang reaksyon ni Reese sa sinabi ko.

I felt a warm sensation escalating on my cheeks. I wandered my eyes everywhere except on his direction. Ayaw kong makita ang reaksyon niya. This is so embarrassing! Pero nakahinga na rin ako ng maluwag matapos sabihin iyon. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Now I'll be dealing with the aftermath. Hindi ko alam anong masasabi niya doon. Will he say, 'Alam ko, matagal na.' But then that's not it. Hindi nga niya alam na gusto ko siya 'di ba?

  "W-What did you just s-say?" I heard him stutter.

Napapikit ako ng mariin at nagsimulang kumalabog ng puso ko. He's not expecting me to repeat it right? Right? Nahihiya na nga ako't lahat lahat.

I turned to look at him. Ang mapupungay niyang mata ay nagkikislapan. He licked his lower lip making it look more redder than before.

  "You like me, huh?" he chuckled after awhile.

Nag-init ulit ang pisngi ko. And idea popped on my mind so I made a move.
Instead of answering him, I grabbed my bag beside me and stood up from the bench. Ngayon ko lang natandaan na kailangan ko na nga palang umuwi. That was what I was supposed to do thirty minutes ago.

'Kay fine! I'm just making this as an excuse pero bahala na! Ganoon naman talaga dapat ang gawin ko e.

Nakatatlong hakbang palang ako ng hinawakan niya ang pulsohan ko upang mahinto. That simple touch resulted to an electrifying curse between the both of us. Napaigtad nalang ako at babawiin sana ang kamay ko sa hawak niya pero hindi siya kumibo.

When I darted my gaze to meet his, I stopped again because of the intensity of his stare. The way he looked at me was like something I will picture out before I go to bed.

The affection, seriousness, and tenderness in his deep orbs made me melt. At parang isang hiling na natupad, tinitigan niya rin ako ng ganito. Na para bang ako lang ang nag-iisang nilalang na nakikita niya sa gabing ito.

And before anything else, he flashed his
signature handsome smile and pinched my cheeks.

  "God, I love you so much," he said and stared at me with so much affection in his eyes.

  "Ugh!!!" sigaw ko sa unan ko.

Hinihingal akong bumangon sa aking kama. Napatitig ako sa kawalan habang paulit-ulit na binabalikan ang nangyari.

I took a deep breathe and tried to calm myself. H'wag ganito Bri, napaghahalataang patay na patay ka sakanya. But to hell with that! Kinikilig ako. Hindi ko inaasahan na ito ang magiging kalabasan ng gabi ko. All I thought that I would continue to convince myself all throughout the week and observe what will happen. Hindi na rin ako umasa na kakausapin niya ako o ano. Although it's not that big of a deal for him, it is for me.

At parang makatotohanan naman ang paliwanag niya tungkol kay Tiana kanina. Taken na pala siya ah. Hindi halata. But then there still a lingering part of me that is not complacent with how things are going especially Reese's statement about Tiana. There's just something with that girl that I can't quiet pinpoint.