Fervent Love / Reece Bibby (stereo kicks)

Chapter 17 - How it broke

I looked into Jack's eyes and melted a little. Why did he have to be so fucking fit. 

'where have you been girl??' he said smiling at me

his teeth were so white and perfect. I must've been staring at him to long as he raised his eyebrows a little.

'Oh sorry, just been proper busy' I replied

'ohhh well i've missed you' he said smirking at me. He made me weak at the knees.

'Me too' I said nervously. What was I doing?

'are you busy now?' he asked

'No' i said back, I wasn't thinking, all I felt was an unignorable attraction. 

'Let's go then?' He said taking my hand

butterflies fluttered in my stomach even though I knew this was wrong wrong and wrong. 

I paid for my coke and followed him out. He led me to his appartment and opened the door, letting me through first. I glanced around. It was really big and modern, lots of glass windows. 

We sat down on the couch as he grabbed 2 wine glasses and a white wine bottle. He poured me some and handed me it. I felt so grown up. I knew he was older than me, but I'd never actually asked him how much.

'So how've you been' He asked looking deep into my eyes

'Fine just busy you know?' I said back

'Why haven't you replied to my texts and calls though?'

'I'm sorry i'm just a bit confused about us'

'I'm not'

'What do you mean?'

'I want you, and I know you want me' he said coming closer

I took in a sharp breath, my lips were begging me to lean forward but my heart was telling me to walk out that door. 

Before I could even decide he crashed his lips onto mine. Without even a second thought, I immediatly pushed him off. I wanted reece, not this. 

'Jack no i'm sorry' I said moving away from him

'What the fuck is wrong with you?' he said his face growing red

I was scared. I grabbed my jacket and got up, feeling the tears already hitting me. 

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back onto the couch and climbed over me. 

'I know you want me' he said assertively

'No jack I don't' I said pushing his chest

He was so strong that he didn't even budge. He pinned my wrists down and agressively kissed me. I was getting really scared now. What the fuck was he doing, I said no?

His hands begun to roam my body, one hand leading up under my shirt and bra. He then dragged it down slowly to my pants and slipped it underneath my thong into my tender area. tears ran down my face as I struggled under his grip. I reached up and kicked him as hard as I could. He groaned and in his moment of distraction I grabbed my jacket and ran out the door and didn't stop running until I reached the house. I can't believe that just happened.

I took a deep breath and knocked on the door, fixing my face to make it look like nothing had happened. Barclay opened it and I'd planned to keep this all a secret, it wasn't even important, but as soon as I saw Barclay I burst out into tears. He looked seirously concerned and pulled me into a hug just barely in the door. I hid into his shoulder, never wanting to come out. He pulled me up and i wrapped my legs around his waist. I felt him move and walk somewhere.

'Whats wrong?' I heard James ask in the doorway quietly but Barclay ignored him and just walked to his bedroom and only put me down when we'd reached his bed. He didn't let go of our hug as he lay down with me. We layed in silence for a few minutes. It was crazy how well he knew me, this is what I needed, just to be hugged. Eventually, I reached up and wiped my eyes.

'Rae..what's wrong?' He asked whispering, knowing I was okay to talk now

'When i was at the shop I saw jack and he brought me back to his apartment and I don't even know why I went because I love reece but then he kissed me and I pushed him off and tried to walk out but he pushed me back down and his hands were just going everywhere and...' I was interuppted with another sob espaping my mouth

I looked at barclays face, he was so shocked

'Rae i'm going to kill him' He said clenching his jaw

'No barcs please, please don't' I said hugging him

'And don't tell anyone..please' I continued

'Rae how can I not tell anyone? this is important, we can't just do nothing' 

'No barcs, just please' I said not having a reason to back myself up

He sighed loudly as if he was disappointed in me

Reece barged in 'WHATS WRONG??' he said really worried

I looked at barcs and then reece and then back to barcs, unsure of what to say. I couldn't lie and say it was nothing now as my face was red and my eyes were puffy. I stayed silent.

Barclay rubbed my back and left, letting us have a moment. I wanted him to stay, I didn't want to deal with this. Reece took Barclays place and pulled me into him. His touch made me cry all over again, but this time over the guilt. I fucking loved reece, why did I even go to Jack's appartment? This was my fault. my fucking fault.

He lifted my chin with his finger 'Rae whats happened?' he said looking like he was going to cry himself

I spoke quietely 'Reece..i'm so sorry.. I..I was at the shop and I saw Jack and we were talking and..'

'WHAT?' He said pushing me off quickly

'No reece just listen' I said holding his hand

'We were talking and then we went back to his appartment and he kissed me and..'

'YOU FUCKED HIM DIDN'T YOU, YOU FUCKING SLUT' he said yelling at me

I couldn't even defend myself, I was crying to much. I just cradled my head in my legs and sobbed.

'I DONT FUCKING LOVE YOU I LIED, I FUCKING HATE YOU I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN SO YOU CAN GO BACK TO HIS FUCKING APPARTMENT AND STAY THERE' he said slamming the door of Barclay's room as he left

I literally have never been so sad in my life. I could hardly breathe. I grabbed Barclay's pillowed and hugged it so tightly, This was my fault.

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