I Think I Kinda, You Know | Joshua Bassett

68 - Stay With Me!

*WARNING: BLOOD IS MENTIONED A LOT AND A LOT OF CUSSING*

"...shit Rachel! Rachel can you hear me? Oh god! Come on! Come on Rachel stay with me!"

Those words echo inside my head like they're in my dream, but they're not. They're getting less and less echoey and they start to become real.

Everything's black. I can only use my hearing sensor. The voice becomes even realer and clearer. I can tell that it's Josh's.

"Stay with me! Rachel please stay with me!"

It's really hard to do but I try to open my eyes. Everything is blurry. The first thing I see is the broken windshield in front of me. The car hood is slightly lifted and smoke is coming out of it. I can hear the sound of the broken glass everytime he moves.

"Oh my god! Oh my god Rachel are you okay??" He says as he sees me opening my eyes.

What is happening? Am I dead? I try moving a little but it hurts. I let out a grunt. Everything hurts. I can't move. I guess I'm still alive.

"Hey... Hey... We're gonna be okay."

I glance at Josh with my blurry vision. There's a red line on his forehead and red spots all over his white button up. He's breathing heavily.

My vision starts coming together. I can see him clearly now. He has a pretty deep cut on his forehead. I look around and examine the entire scene. I try to move once again, thinking maybe it wouldn't hurt as much since I'm fully awake now. I was wrong. It makes it even painful. My head hurts and I feel like spinning. I let out a whimper.

"Hey sshhh... It's okay. Does it hurt?"

I nod. I know he just told me it's okay. But I can totally hear the panic in his voice.

"What hurts? Tell me what hurts."

"E... Everything," I whimper.

"Okay, okay. Just... Try not to move as much. We're okay. You're okay."

God it's happening. I'm having a panic attack. We're not okay, right? He kept saying we're okay, which means that we're not. This can't be real because I feel like I just died. I can't feel anything except for pain. The scene around me is scary. It feels like I'm in a horror movie. Josh's forehead is covered with blood. He has red stains all over his white shirt. I'm pretty sure my head is covered with blood too.

And what makes it more depressing is that I can't move! I'm panicking but I can't move. I have this really strong urge to bite my nails and jump up and down to calm myself down but I can't physically do that! It hurts to even move my hands a little bit. I literally just wanna cry.

I can't control my breathing. I keep taking deep, short breaths. I can't calm myself down. I feel light headed.

"Hey hey hey, calm down. You're okay. Sshhh you're okay I promise. Just breathe."

I'm trying, Josh!

"Breathe Rachel."

Okay, for some reason after hearing that, I start to be able to catch my breath and start to be able to breathe normally. What is with his voice? Why does my body just instantly do what he says? I swear that did something to my body.

I feel so light headed I feel like I'm gonna pass out in a few minutes.

And my head hurts so bad. I must've hit my head really hard.

"Shit you're bleeding," he mumbles.

I don't think he meant to say that out loud for me to hear it. But I heard it. Also, Josh, you should see yourself in a fucking mirror!