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Chapter TWENTY FOUR - Prayed Up

Chapter TWENTY FOUR

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Aliyah

I sat in one of the uncomfortable ass chairs in the waiting room as I held my sleeping daughter in my arms tightly. My leg bounced up and down rapidly as numerous thoughts ran through my head. I was surprised that Amani hadn't woken up yet from the movement, but she hadn't done it just yet, and I was glad. I couldn't believe this had happened once again and the thought brought tears to my eyes. I wiped my hand across my face, because I felt them coming once again. Everything was going great today and all of a sudden this happened. I was lost, confused, and in pain as sat in the hospital.

"Mommy, why are you crying?" Amani asked wiping the sleep from her eyes as she sat up straight on my lap. I looked down at her and that only made more tears appear in my eyes. Amani looked so much like him that it hurt to even look at her right now, knowing that me might not be okay to see another day. I took in a deep breathe, because I had to pull myself together, for her.

"Uh, baby mommy just have a headache, that's all." I said trying to give her a convincing smile, but I couldn't even manage to form one on my face. This was hard, but she believed it, because she nodded her head and looked away from me. It didn't last long though.

"Where is daddy? I want to see him." she asked and that's when I completely broke down. Every tear that I tried to hold in escaped my eye sockets and made a run for it down my face. I felt Amani being taken away from my lap and I quickly stood to my feet. I didn't want her to see me crying like this, so I walked away from where our family filled the waiting room area. The tears streamed down my face in full force at the question she asked, because I didn't know exactly what to say to her. It wasn't exactly easy telling a child your father can possibly be on his death bed, and you may never get to see him alive again.

I paced the floor back and forth with hard cold facts weighing heavy on my heart. I held my face as I walked, feeling the need to just scream right here in this hospital. Before I could act on my wishes, I was engulfed into a big warm hug. I didn't even get the chance to see exactly who it was, because my face was hidden inside of their chest. I allowed all of the built up tears and emotions to come out as I stood here against the person, that I was sure was a male. I didn't even care as I nearly fell in these heels, but the person held me up on my feet firmly. I thought I'd never have to feel this pain again after the accident in high school, but now I'm feeling it all over again, and this time it hurt so much worst.

Andre was shot in the chest this time, unlike the last time his shoulder was only injured. This time it was way more severe and I don't know if he'll make it or not. This feeling was the worst, not knowing if my fiance or the father of my child would ever wake up again and be able to see our faces. That thought ate me alive, especially thinking of Amani. This news was not some that I'd like to tell my daughter about.

"It's gone be okay Liyah, everything gone be straight. You know Andre gone pull through this, he always does. I know my brother, and he wouldn't leave here like this. Just have faith sis, he gone be okay, believe that." Those words were whispered into my ear and that's when I recognized the voice, it was Aaron.

At the sound of the voice of my brother-in-law, I wrapped my arms around him to hold myself up more. What he'd said was very sweet and it made me think positive, but it still didn't keep the tears from falling, my heart from hurting, my mind from wandering, or my prayers from flowing. He was right though, I just had to have faith that things would turn out for the best.

"Thanks Aaron," I said after a whole 10 minutes passed of him just being my support system and holding me as I released all of my emotions. I couldn't help but to thank him for that, because I needed it right now. I released him and stood back a couple of steps. I was sure that my eyes were puffy, face was red, and my make-up was all fucked up, but I didn't even care about that at this moment.