Summer Desire | Jinkook ✔️

Fourteen

Jungkook got up from the bed and began treading around Jin's room, not gathering what he had heard. "It's not as bad as it sounds." Jin lets out, looking at the younger, who appeared to be traumatized by his latest revelation.

"Not as bad as it sounds?! You just told me you are married. I am sleeping with a married man, how is this not bad? And even more troubling, you are sleeping with other men too. What the fuck, Seokjin?!" Jungkook yelled, outraged. Bringing his uninjured arm up to his head, he grasped his hair and screamed out in frustration, letting out a string of curse words.

Jin gets up from the bed and walks towards Jungkook, "please stay away from me, don't come near me!" Jungkook yells at him.

Nodding, Jin stayed some distance away from Jungkook as he began talking, "I know how it appears Jungkook, but honestly, it's not that way. Legally I am married, but we are not together. We have not been for a year and a half now. "

Jungkook looks up at him, "t-then, why are you not divorce?"

Jin sighs and leaned against the door folding his arms across his chest, "it's complicated."

"Well, can you make it uncomplicated and explain it to me, how are you not together, but not divorced? Wow, you really are a man of many secrets. I am just, wow, Seokjin. Don't tell me you have a kid, too, do you?"

Jin's eyes shifted from Jungkook as he looked down at his feet, "no, I don't." he lets out in a murmur and then swallowed as he looked back up at Jungkook and held his lips together, clearing his throat, "I filed for a divorce, it's in court right now, but it's been difficult. I am getting to the end, though, but he is difficult as he did not want a divorce. I guess things could have been finalized by now had I filed for divorce immediately, but I didn't."

"Wow, I am still trying to wrap my head around this."

"It's a lot, I know. I told you my life here was different. It's part of the reason I wanted to enjoy just what we were, but you are so persistent, I mean, I don't get it, but I hope you can understand now that you can do so much better-"

"Stop saying that! Let me decide that, for once, stop discounting my feelings. I get your life is different. I mean, I didn't get it before, but sure as shit get it now. You are married, damn, I still can't believe this."

"I am sorry I am not discounting your feelings. But let's be honest, Jungkook, we don't know much about each other; we spend more time having sex than we do talking. I think this is the most we have talked while being in the same room. You brought me on a date we ended up having sex even then, how can you be certain about your feelings when you don't even know me? I get you have feelings, but what are those feelings? What about me, do you like?" Jin felt the younger was only expressing he liked him because of their sexual chemistry, which he knew for one would go away. Those things didn't last forever. Jungkook was young and couldn't understand that.

"Well, Seokjin, you don't allow me to get to know you. This is why I have asked for us to date exclusively, yes we have sex a lot, but it does not mean I haven't seen things in you beyond that. I know what it's like not to want to commit, hell my entire dating life thus far, I have hidden from committing. I have not been interested in anyone besides you.

I guess your way of acting with me is my payback for what I have done to others. I wish you could have given me a chance to show you that I can be much more than a sex buddy. I can't show you if you don't give me a chance.

Yes, I have a problem keeping my hands to myself when with you, but I can work on that and show you that I am more than a sex hunger teen you met in the summer. Moreover, I am not a teenager anymore. I am a man, a man who had an interest in you until I found out you are married, that's big, you are married!"