After he left, I can't stop crying, I even stop going to Argao for vacation, and just remained in Cebu. It took me so long to move on from my bestfriend for 9 years, who left me hanging. I was lost you know. It just hurts so bad, he didn't even care to explain to me, he knew that I would understand, but he just didn't.
Now my heart is still aching for the lost of my bestfriend, yet I managed to tell myself to just forget about it and leave it in the past. I must focus to what is in front me now. And that is watching Franz and his minions playing soccer in the field.
I'm not really interested watching them playing soccer, but Harmonia forced me to. Well, I had no choice because she told me that I am her only true friend here in Meadows High. One year na din kaming magkaibigan ni Mona. Yes, one year na ako dito sa Manila. It's not bad actually, but I still miss my original circle of friends in Cebu. Nag catch up naman kami kagabi, kaya nga puyat na puyat ako ngayon kasi ang tagal kong natulog kagabi. Ang kukulit kaya nila Justina!
Nag paalam na ako kay Harmonia kasi 5 na, I still have to go to Clam Bar, mag prepare pa ako for my gig. I really love singing, it makes me calm and express myself. Mona helped me with this, because I begged her when I was in Grade 11. Umuwi muna ako sa bahay para makapagbihis. Mommy was okay with it kasi weekend naman bukas. I just wore a pink printed tee, and a faded high-waisted jeans, with a pair of white sneakers. I also tied my hair into a pony tail. Nagpulbo lang ako then konting liptint.
Nag taxi lang ako papunta doon, Mommy can't drop me there right now, because she is so busy with something I don't know. Nagkarating na din ako sa Clam Bar. I greeted some waiters/waitresses there that are close to me. I even greeted the manager. It's already 8pm, tapos na rin ako mag dinner. I will start singing at 9pm, so while waiting, I helped serving in the bar. The place starting to get crowded, tutulong pa sana ako pero tinawag na ako nang manager sa bar.
"It's already 8:50 Gray, punta kana dun sa mini stage at mag setup ka na sa guitar mo" The manager told me
Tumango nalang ako at naglakad na papunta sa mini stage. Na setup ko na ang guitar ko and then I started checking the mic. "Mic test, 1..2..3"
At first kinakabahan pa ako pero ngayon sanay na sanay na ako kaya ngumiti ako sa mga tao, pagkatapos ko mag check sa lahat.
"Good evening everyone!.." I smiled at them. Good mood ako ngayon kasi kakanta nanaman ako "To all the people who are new here in Clam Bar, my name is Gray Raven Chen.." I was joking a little and gladly everyone laughed, pagkatapos nang joke ko, I started to introduced the song that I'm about to sing. "So for tonight, I'm going to sing Tagpuan by Moira Dela Torre"
Everyone clapped their hands and cheered for me. I smiled again and I began to strum my guitar.
"'Di, 'di ko inakalang
Darating din sa akin
Nu'ng ako'y nanalangin kay Bathala
Naubusan ng bakit"
My heart calmed as I was singing. Tumingin ako sa mga tao at para bang may hinahanap ako. I wasn't expecting him to be in here, still I was hoping for him to come.
"Bakit umalis nang walang sabi?"
Nang hindi ko siya nakita, I just closed my eyes and just focused on singing. Alam ko na hindi kami masyadong nagkakasama, but I won't deny my feelings for that guy. Kahit paano, there were still moments that we were together, and those were precious moments for me.
"Bakit 'di siya lumaban kahit konti?"
If it's not for him, atleast for me it is. I treasure moments as if my life depended on it. Which is true, because when the moment I lost my greatest treasure before, it felt like, I died.
"Bakit 'di maitama ang tadhana?"
Right at this moment, even though I was closing my eyes, I can feel him watching at me, kaya dumilat ako at agad nakita nang aking mga mata ang taong kanina ko pa hinahanap.
He was there standing with Harper, Keith, Spencer and John. and in between them...Francis Zeki Aguinaldo, in short.. Franz.
"At nakita kita sa tagpuan ni Bathala
May kinang sa mata na 'di maintindihan.."
We were both just staring at each other, like it was just the two of us here in the bar.
"Tumingin kung saan
Sinubukan kong lumisan.."
But then,
A girl suddenly appeared beside him, she held his waist and kissed his cheeks.
I was shocked, pero di ko pinahalata. My mood then suddenly changed.
"At tumigil ang mundo.."
