Favourable Tragedy

19 | UNKNOWN PATH

CHAPTER NINETEEN

ETHAN

I messed up really bad, she will probably stop talking with me, Damn! I ruined everything, what should I do now?! What if she ends our friendship? No, I don't want to lose her at any cost! I saw Hazelnut as she entered the classroom and didn't even look at me. It seemed like she was trying to avoid me because of the previous night. It was obvious that she was surprised with my sudden confession but still for some reason I was hoping she would at least talk with me about this, about us. I didn't care even if she rejects me. liar liar pants on fire. I can handle her rejection but not her silence. 

When Mason asked her out, she at least made it clear and told him that she was not interested but when I confessed my feelings yesterday, she didn't say a single word on this instead she told me to go home because it was late and we had school next day. who even response to a confession like that? Maybe she never saw it coming from my side or maybe she was not able to accept my feelings and face me. Whatever may be the reason but it was sure that she was avoiding me. 

I was desperately waiting for this class to end so that I could go and talk with her. I was not sure if that was the right timing to talk with her or not but I couldn't handle it anymore. I wanted to know the main reason behind her silence and what was going on her mind. I deserved to know what she thinks, what she feels. As soon as the bell rang, I straightly went to Hazelnut, gathering all the courage I had within me.

"Hey, heza-" considering the current situation, I stopped myself from calling her Hazelnut, it seemed weird to call her Jessica as it became a habit to call her Hazelnut "Jessica! Do you have a minute?"

"Hi Ethan, actually I -" I knew she was going to say no, so I cut her off and didn't let her complete her sentence.

"Please, it won't take much longer" I kind of pleaded. I never felt so helpless and nervous in my entire life. Thankfully she nodded and agreed for this. "Let's go to the terrace, there are so many students here. It's very noisy."

"You said it won't take much time, then why terrace? We can talk here as well" she replied. her tone seemed different which I was not really familiar with but even though she sounded a bit upset, it felt so much better after hearing her voice. Her voice was like a siren's call to my ears, which I can hear all my life.

"No, we can't" I smiled trying to be casual because I could sense the awkward air which was lingering around us "let's go" I hesitantly grabbed her wrist and started walking towards the terrace. Thankfully she didn't try to free her hand from my grip which was not really tight though she kind of trembled with my sudden touch.

"Now tell me, why are you avoiding me Jessica?" I asked her politely when we reached a terrace. "I am sorry if I did or said something wrong, but please don't avoid me. Your silence is killing me, you can be mad at me, you can hit me if you want but please at least talk with me, I really don't want to lose you. If you don't feel in the same way for me it's alright, it's totally fine! I won't force you but please don't ignore me like this, I really can't bear the thought of not having you in my life" I said in one breath as I swallowed past the lump in my throat. I didn't know that the thought of losing someone would make me feel so weak. It was getting too much for me. I was afraid of losing Hazelnut and the thought of losing her was literally driving me insane.

"I- I am not avoiding you Ethan" she finally spoke as she looked into my teary eyes. "and who said I don't have feelings for you" what? Does that mean she likes me too? the way she was looking at me, it was clyster clear that she had some feelings for me too, but if that was the case why was she avoiding me?

"W-what? you have feelings for me?" I looked at her in the shock please say yes please say yes.

"Yes, I do, since the day I saw you in the coffee shop I have felt a different kind of connection with you" she replied. I was filled with joy when I heard she too had feelings for me wait did she say coffee shop? What really?! She had the feeling for me since so long! damn, it was hard to believe that! "I never had the courage to tell you this and I-I am just afraid..."

"Afraid of what hazelnut?" I went one step closer to her as I slightly held her hand.

"Afraid of falling in love, afraid of getting my heartbroken. I am scared to fall in love because what if the person I am falling for is not willing to catch me and even if he is what if one day he decides he doesn't want to hold onto me anymore and he just loosens his grip and leaves me alone with my heart which broke into million pieces when I fell recklessly for someone who couldn't even hold me properly? I think my heart is very fragile, I might not be able to handle any heartbreak. But you Ethan, you make me want to do things which I would never do, you make me feel something which I can't even describe in words. Being in love feels like a risk and Ethan and you are the risk which I am willing to take" oh this girl, she left me speechless, she defiantly was scared of getting her heartbroken and I was going to make sure to wash away all her fears. I couldn't believe it when she said I was the risk she was willing to take. I was going to make sure that her this risk was really worth taking. This was the best day of my life and this girl had my heart, all of it.

"I promise you hazelnut, if you take this risk you won't regret a single second of it. I promise you that I will always be with you, by your side, holding your hands. I will never ever leave you. You just have to fall Hazelnut; I am already there to catch you and I promise that I will hold you so tightly that nothing can make me lose my grip over you." I reached for her hand lacing her fingers with mine. "Jessica Johnson, I am willing to catch you and hold you in my arms forever. I want to share my last slice of pizza with you, I want to cry with you, I want to laugh with you, I want to do every damn thing with you, I want you to be mine, will you allow me to be your boyfriend?"

"Yes!" she covered her mouth with her hands, her eyes were filled with tears and before I knew she threw her arms around me and... hugged me! I had her in my arms, and that was all I could ever ask for "but I will not share my last slice of pizza with you"

"Sure, no problem baby" I chuckled and pulled her closer to me, engulfing myself in her. "As long as you are with methere is nothing else, I want or need in my life." I love you. Yes, I loved her. It may seem too soon but that's what I really felt for her and I was not afraid to admit that. But it might had scared the hell out of her if I would have confessed so early, so I decided to keep my mouth shut.

She let go and put her hands on my chest, then she looked up at me, her hazel brown eyes were shifting back and forth and a cute smile was plastered on her lips. "I am drawn to you" my heart thudded against my chest loudly when these words came out of her mouth.

"And I am addicted to you" I gently tucked her flowing hair behind her ear and stroked her face with the back of my hand. "do you have any other plans tonight?"

"Not really, why?"

"So, would you like to go on a date with me?" it took all the courage for me to finally ask her out for a date.

"Tonight?" she raised her eyebrows and bit her lip to stop herself from smiling.

"Yes, my lady, do we have any problem?" I winked.

"n-no, I don't have any problem" she giggled, her voice a little embarrassed. She looked down at her feet and her cheeks turned kind of pink. Was she blushing? God, I am head over heels for this girl.

"Great, then I will pick you up at 7:30 pm, ok?"

"Ok! But where are we going for dinner?"

"That's a surprise" I replied "it's late, I will drive you home now"

"Sure, let's go" she smiled and I held her hand in my hand as we both started walking out of the terrace. Perhaps towards the road of our new journey which we were not sure where it was headed to. The only thing we knew was that we wanted to walk this path together till the end, holding each other's hand like this forever.

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Hey peeps, so Ethan Jessica are about to start their new journey, let's wish them luck! haha. Please don't forget to vote and comment. have a nice day/night!

-Pallavi