Starcrossed {Nalby}

Chapter 11

Please do not read the first part if you don't like reading about self harm (I'll out a for when it starts and finishes)

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The blade gently swipes itself across my left wrist. I feel a sting of pain shoot through me but then also some flood of relief in my brain. Like something's broke or something, some kind of trigger makes me want to do it more. So I do. The red cracks sprouted on my wrists then gently dripped down my arms. I felt myself start to panic as I grab a towel and wipe away the blood but it keeps coming. Like it's something I can never escape.

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I clutch my wrist then run out but as I do that I smash into Winston,he's carrying a whole stash of pots and pans which fall got he ground.

"Shuck I'm so bloody sorry man!" I groan as I bend down to pick them up.
"What?" Winston grabs my wrists as he notices all the blood "What happened Newt?"
"A bush, I scraped myself."
"No you didn't."
"Winston. Look,I'm begging you."
"I need to tell Alby."
"No you don't!"
"You promise me you won't do that again?"
"I can't.."
"Please."
"I wish I could."
"I'm never letting you near these kitchens again you hear me?"
"Okay."
"Now. Go."
"Do you have a bandage or something?"
"Yeah,"

He hands me one from his pocket and I wrap it around my wrist then pull my shirt sleeve down as much as I can. Walking back out into the Glade like nothing's happened. Like everything's okay. When inside I'm going insane.

"Newt!" Alby calls,running towards me "What happened to your arm?"
"Nothing. I fell over."
"Right,you seen Winston."
"Yeah. He's in the kitchens. Why?"
"Frypan just walked in. Apparently he's crying."
"What! Why?"
"Don't know. Come on!"

So we run to see Frypan comforting a Winston who slumps near the sink as stray tears fall down his face.

"What happened?" Alby demands.

Winston looks at me for a moment. I shake my head begging him to keep his mouth shut but it opens anyway..

The start of the chapter was one the hardest things I've ever wrote in my life😔