This Can't Be Good

Chapter 24

"Parker?" I stuttered out.

There was no way in hell it could be Parker. I mean sure I wanted it to be him, more than anyone knew. It just couldn't be. Parker wasn't capable of saying all those things. I mean the meaning behind everything, the roses! Sure he kissed me but that was just spare of the moment, right? I was just hearing things. My mind was playing tricks with me.

"Are you okay?" He step forward into the shadow of the moon.

"Parker?" I said again. This time he took me by my wrists and made me look at him. My thoughts were confirmed. How could Parker be behind all these sweet notes? How could this be?

"Can you say anything other than my name?" he asked getting closer to me.

What the hell did he expect me to say? Did he honestly think this was going to go perfectly well? I mean this was Parker!

"H-how?" I asked and stepped back. "W-why?" I just kept rambling off silly one worded questions.

"Josylne breathe!" he said pushing me to the floor. I think he was afraid I was going to pass out or something.

Once I caught my breath again I spoke. "Why?" It was the first thing that came to my mind. Why? Why was he just now realizing this? Why did he chose now to tell me? Why didn't he tell me sooner, I mean we fucking live together!

"Yeah I guess that's a good question," he laughed. He took his phone and placed it on the floor to give off light so I could see him. I did the same with mine.

"Look Josylne," he stop and fidgeted around. "I've liked you for a while. I guess I never realized it growing up. You were just Jayden's younger sister and an annoying girl. I don't know what it was this year that made me realize but fuck Josylne, I like you way too much for my own good."

"How?" I asked again. I hope he wasn't expecting much cause quite frankly I was still in shock.

He laughed. "I knew after everything that's happened you wouldn't believe me if I just told you. I also knew that Jayden would have killed me and you 'hated' me so much I didn't have a chance. I figured I couldn't hold it in, so I essentially wrote the letters to get my feelings out. The first one was so nerve-racking. I had no idea if you were going to read it but then you, my sister, and Cassadee were all in your room and I figured you were talking about it.

Every time I tried to do something nice for you in person we'd end up fighting. Like the carnival. I never meant to say what I did but I was so frustrated. When that guy was talking to you at Disney World I wanted to rip his eyes out. The same thing when you hung out with Max, even though he knew every-"

"Max knew the whole time?" I questioned.

He nodded and continued, "Then at the airport I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to kiss you. I had dreamt of it for too long. When I did it I didn't know how you would react but damn Josylne that was the best thing ever.

Josylne I've known you my entire life. You're part of my family. I mean we were next door neighbors until we all moved in together when Jayden and I started high school. Looking back I was a complete ass to you and you had every right to hate me. I know I broke you when you turned eight, but I was only nine and girls were gross. I guess I never thought of you as more because I was afraid of what Jayden would say. I mean he's loved Miranda from day one but it was different for me. He wouldn't hurt my sister and he knew I would. Maybe I realized I liked you when I was little, I have no idea, or maybe I figured it out the night with the thunderstorms. Maybe I was in denial and afraid.

I don't care anymore. For the past two months you're the only one whose been on my mind. I'm with you all the time. At school, at practice, at home. Its hard to get away when you're with someone all the time, I'm sure you know that. You have driven me fucking insane Josylne and I never would have guessed it. Who would have?" He panted finally done.