I'll be the grand duchess

Chapter 35: May 05th

I know it's November in reality but okay

I've waited for Aphrodite to take me home. After meeting with Seraphina and Delaphina, we all have agreed to exchange letters with each others. Since Delaphina has a pigeon to deliver letters, it was even easier but I still need to get a letter pigeon for myself.

Under the tree shade, I watched the clouds slowly floating and the pastel pink and blue sky reminded me of a lyric video song I used to listened and watch.

I remembered what the queen said and what Elina said about my eyes. But turned out, it wasn't only me who have that unique kind of eyes.

"Adele!! Mommy is back, did you have fun with your cousin you met today?"

That startled me for a little ==, don't do that next time. Aphrodite who came behind me without notice, lifted me up and hug me tightly.

Ahh, I'm not a pervert but her feminine scent really made me feel secured every time I am unhappy. Her motherly scent is what I yearn for when I'm scared. Sometime, I wonder how I will live without her as I grow up.

I snuggled into her neck and hug her back. This is so comforting for me.

"Good girl, what made you stay silent today?"

Aphrodite stroke my head while walking. She must have noticed my strange attitude today, as everyday I would run to her and cling onto her but today, I just stayed silent.

I shook my head, not giving her any answer. Aphrodite seem to understand me and just continue to stroke my head until I fall asleep in her arms.

Today was very exhausting. I remembered all those pain I experienced when I was Ria as a kid. It was so hard for me not to try and look at other kids with parents. Sometimes, there are kids  whose parents were late and waited for their parents to pick them up, but later on, it was only me who was left behind in the kid playground.

I would went back to the orphanage and cried myself to sleep because I didn't have any parents to kiss, hug, laugh with, to show them my achievements, those achievements I earned are pointless.

Ever since I returned from the palace, my happy idiot mood disappeared and each day, I would stayed inside the library or my bedroom, sleeping or studying.

Aphrodite did try to get in touch with me but I only respond to her with a big smile on face, saying that it was okay.

I was thinking what would happen if the original female lead come back. Will Ares  divorced Aphrodite and separate me from her or will he just abandon both of us and live happily with his new family?

Can I stay strong until then?

This world is nothing but a novel written by human. What if someday I return back to that small room with one bed, an old blanket and a pillow with a study desk and just some books?

Each day of mine is no difference from a ticking bomb, waiting for the original female lead to make her appearance. Ah, whatever! This is it! This is my last year being the happy lucky going kid! There is nothing for me to drink to drown in my sorrow! Only tea with ice! No alcohol! No Cola!

I had finished reading all those history books, it's no different from reading the details of the novel's extra mention.

[ Adelliana Ivan Valentine, Level 24: A depressed shut-in neet ]

Before I knew it, a month has passed. I did nothing but studying and sleeping all day, not realizing that there will be a event today.

I was lying on my bed in my white night dress and a blue shooting star pattern nightcap. Today is just another boring day of mine.