A sad DomKat story

The confession

⚠️Trigger-warning⚠️

The story includes depression.

I would highly recommend to listen to 'Surrender' by Natalie Taylor before reading this story.

6am. She gets out of the bed. She puts her make-up on. She gets dressed and makes her hair to a cute little pony tail.

It's 6:30am. Before she goes out of the house, she puts on some gorgeous red lipstick.

7am. She is on the way to school. Her style, her walk, her hair and even her make-up makes her look so elegant. She's wearing black Vans, a black ripped jeans, a black t-shirt and a black oversized jacket. It seems like, she likes black.

It's 7:15am. She puts headphones into her ears. She listens to girls by girl in red. Everybody looks at her with their mouths open. She looks so stunning, even if she's just wearing black.

Suddenly her friend Kat came to her and told her how stunning she looked like. Dom didn't know, when she's wearing black, she's actually pretty. She's only wearing black, when she's in a bad and sad mood. Dom pulled the headphones out of her ears. Even if she was listening to her favourite singer and her favourite song, she still was sad.

Kat noticed it and asked what had happened.

The sad girl answered: "I don't know what's going on with me right now."

Kat looked into Doms gorgeous green blue eyes and she noticed, that Dom started to tear up.

She hugged the sad girl.

Dom immediately started to cry. No one knew what had happened and why she was crying. Dom never cries in school. She wanted to go home again. The sad girl kept crying and each tear was falling onto Kats t-shirt.

When they went to an empty classroom, Dom tried to explain to Kat, what had happened. But she wasn't able to talk, she just wanted to go home.

"I-I-I j-just wanted t-to b-be ha-appy." The sad girl said.

Kat still doesn't know what was going on with Dom. She tried to calm her down and figure out, why she was crying.

"Pshhht, it's going to be okay. We have time. Just calm down. It's just us in this big and empty classroom. I'm here and I will stay by your side."

Dom calmed a little bit down.

After a few seconds, the sad girl took off her jacket and showed Kat all of the scars that she had been carrying around for the last few days.

Kat didn't know what was going on with her.

"Dom, what did you do? Why? I'm not going to judge you, but if I should help you, you have to tell me, what's going on." Kat said.

Dom took a deep breath.

"A week ago, when I was by my therapist, he asked me some simple questions about me. We kept talking for about an hour, till he came to the conclusion, that I have depression. I started to cry after that. He said, there was nothing he could do, to help me. I was sad for the rest of the day. Nobody was there to help me. My mum and dad ignored me after I visited my therapist. They didn't even want to know what he said, or how I'm feeling. And I didn't want to annoy you with my sadness. I just didn't had any other choice. I wanted to surrender. I started to write a 'good bye' letter to my family. I just couldn't hold on anymore. All of the sadness, all of the pain. It wouldn't go away until I grabbed my razor blades and started to cut myself until it started to burn. Kat I really wanted to give up. I didn't even want to try anymore. I'm so hurt. I'm crying everyday. And I'm making people mad and disappointed. I just feel like I'm nothing. No one cares if I'd die. No one loves me. No one wants me. The world doesn't need Dominique Provost-Chalkley to be a better place. Oh god, I'm so broken and I'm so lost. My heart keeps bleeding. My head is killing me. And my soul is already dead. So why should I even try anymore? My life is a mess. God damn, I'm a fucking mess. I tell myself I'm alright, but I'm not. It just hurts to know, that I'm unwanted, or at least it feels like I'm unwanted. Kat I rea-"

That was when Kat interrupted Dom. She started to cry and she hugged Dom as tight as she could. Kat never cried. It was the first time ever, that the sad girl saw Kat crying. She always seemed to be the tough and strong girl, but Dom had never seen her weak.

"You're not unwanted okay! You aren't nothing okay! No one hates you, no one could live without Dominique Provost-Chalkley in this world okay! I need you! You're the person I look up too! You're beautiful and you're my best friend! I love you so much it hurts. Stop saying those awful things about yourself! You may have depression I get that, and also you may wanted to give up. But if you'd ever decide to kill yourself I'll kill myself too, because I couldn't live without your cute smile, gorgeous eyes, beautiful voice and stupid, yet funny jokes. You are an amazing human being Dom! You light up my life everyday, just with a little smile. I've been suffering with depression for many many years now. The only reason I didn't commit suicide was you. You were my reason to stay alive. I've never told you that, because I didn't want to bother you. I also cut myself all over my body. I was destroying it. Every time I heard your beautiful voice though, I stopped crying and I started to think about you. I started to imagine, how you'd feel, if I'd be gone. How you'd be suffering in silence. I didn't want that. I fucking love you okay? I love you so much it hurts. You didn't realize it. Damn I cried myself to sleep every night, because of the thought, that you'd not like me back. It still hurts so much to know, that I fell in love with a person who will never like me back."

Dom was shocked.

She put her hands around Kats face and wiped away her tears. She was looking into the beautiful, big, red and brown eyes of Kat. Kat kept crying until Dom kissed her. Dom just didn't know how she could've helped Kat. Kat was in love with her. She just confessed her love. She said Dom was the reason why she didn't give up.

I'm sorry, if I maybe made you cry a little bit, it wasn't my intention. I hope you enjoyed the first chapter so far of my new story. If you have anything you'd like to say about the story, then just let me know in the comment section below.