Miss Pathetic

~32~ Here we go again

"So, let me get this straight, you are saying you felt bored out of your mind. Even though you had your five best friends and one possible crush with you, you felt alone and you called Sophia. And then, you asked her out on a date ?" Harry raised his eyebrow at me and gave me a what-da-fuck-man look and I sigh'ed, ignoring it intentionally. Of course it sounded like a stupid plan when he said it like that, but I couldn't exactly tell him about the 'green monster save the friends' plan. So I had to make up something which was good enough, well obviously it was not. Seeing as Harry is finding it hard to believe,

"I didn't exactly ask her out on a date-date you know, I just kind of asked her to meet up and have a cuppa" I explained as my cheeks turned a light shade of rosy pink.

"That doesn't matter Liam ! You know what will happen if the media finds out about Sophia. Not only the media, but the fans. They will immediately start drawing comparisons between her and Danielle, then make all those kinds of photo shopped and reaction pictures and what not. Then Sophia will get a lot of hate and Danielle will again be bombarded with millions of messages on her instagram, twitter and everywhere asking her to be together with you again after everything calmed down. Do you want that kind of thing to happen again ?" Harry said and I flinched, remembering that horrible time. It sure surprises me how we all survived through it.

"I know, okay ? But trust me on this Haz, I know what I am doing. So please, just let me be. Just leave me alone you guys, I know you all think for the band and for us. But I am not sixteen anymore. I am older, I am independent and I just, let me make my own decisions. Obviously I can't expect anything from Modest, at least you guys should support me through this." I yelled and Harry's eyes widened. He immediately backed away. My own jaw drooped at what I said. I let it all out of me, whatever I had been thinking until now. So cruelly

And it feels terrible, to see that expression on my best mate's face.

Heartbroken.

"I'm sorry. I understand. I'll leave now" Harry dejectedly said and the look he gave me nearly killed me. He slowly walked away. I tried to stop him, say a few words to him, that I understand he is only worried about me and my loved ones. But I couldn't. I couldn't get those words out. Day by day, it got harder and harder to fill in the spaces between all of us which kept getting deeper. Day by day it got harder to reach out to everyone. Obviously there was a much deeper problem going on between all of us which we refused to accept and just ignored. But how much longer can we go on like that ?

I sigh'ed and as our bus came to a stop. It was the airport. Quickly gathering my stuff and leaving the suitcases for the guards to carry, I got out of the bus followed by other four guys, Pathy and some other management members. I didn't dare look into the eyes of Harry, Louis or Pathy. I couldn't. So I decided to stick with Niall and Zayn for the day.

Later it turned out, Zayn was busy pretty much into himself. He didn't really talk, reply, or even showed interest in anything we talked about. He was just so engrossed in his phone, with headphones on like he was trying to tune the world out. I worry about him.

That leaves me with Niall. My bud whom I can always trust.

"Hey, Niall !" I cheerfully shouted and ran towards him. His eyes were confused and a bit alert, darting here and there inside the airport, before they came across the running me and widened.

"O-oh hey... Liam ?" Niall was utterly confused. Obviously ,we don't really go to each other unless we have some important work from them and running like a batshit crazy person and being so cheerful must have blown his mind off.

"What are you doing here ?" He asked and I chuckled.

"Nothing. I was bored and I guess everyone is busy." I said and smiled sadly.

"Yeah. Everyone is. I kind of ask myself sometimes. Do you, do you think the end is near ?" He hesitantly asked, with trembling eyes, and such uncertainity in his eyes which made me question, how did we get here ?

"Of course not ! Why do you think that ?" I asked bewildered. Okay, so maybe not really bewildered because what he asked is what I have been asking myself these last few weeks.

"I don't know Liam. We, we are not how we used to be before, ye'know ? We used to be always together joking around, rebelling against modest, telling each other stuff about our ongoing lives. And now, we don't even go to each other unless it's business or something important. And there is some weird tension between you and Louis. Zayn is so engrossed in his own little world to see anything around, and as much as it hurts to say this Harry and I are the only ones helping this band to stay togethet but now even we are starting to get irritated. At least, Harry is." Niall sat down on one of the metallic chairs in the VIP area, he rested his forehead on the palm of his hand and suddenly looked exhausted.

"Mate, come on. Cheer up a bit, only USA is left and then we'll be on our way to our home sweet home. And these things keep happening. Band members fall apart, they fight, and the break up. But, we are different Niall. We are special. I believe in us. I know we can get through this like we have with all other difficulties. Don't be upset mate, we are one direction ! We won't be so easy to break apart. " I winked at him playfully, and he gave a small almost negligible smile back.

"Liam and Niall it is time to board the private jets. You guys and Harry will be boarding one, and Louis and Zayn the other like always." One of our management team member said and we nodded.

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After a long flight, we finally landed to our almost second home. USA ! We were currently in new York. Oh how it felt to breathe the new York air. It was heaven. It was as if new York was the sky and we, the free birds who can roam and fly wherever we want to, however we want to. There's no one to stop us, no one to scold us, no one to pinpoint that is wrong that is right. That's how New York felt to me. It felt ...kind of independent.

Obviously not for long, soon our management crew got off another plane and immediately started coming towards us.

I rolled my eyes.

And here we go again.

Okay so I know this is a bit exactly a good chapter. It has no romance at all but I just wanted you guys to have a little insight on what is ACTUALLY happening in the band in this story. I have been focusing on pathy a little too much in all of my story so this is just like a kind of sub chapter. I hope you liked it and if you didn't , don't worry from next chapter things will be more... Cheery I guess. Sorry for late update but I guess it's my 10th class in India and its really important and my all sorts of exams are coming up. Anyways , hope you enjoyed it.

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