Miss Pathetic

~ 19 ~ Finals And Surprise *Part 1*

Hello , okay . So first a fall , thank you so much for those 2800 reads! . I gain like 200 reads every week and that's A LOT ! For me at least :) . This chapter will be awesome ! I can bet ya ;) . Lots of things are gonna happen . The surprise , finals , etc . SO hold your horses ! I am not gonna bore you with this author note. Enjoy :

To say I am nervous would be an understatement . A huge , huge understatement . After all , these are the finals . THE FINALS . I might be over exaggerating a little bit right now , but believe me , this is so not easy for me . I have always dreamt since I was little .

I was a dreamer . When I was 5 , I dreamt of being a princess . When I was 10 , I dreamt of being a teacher . When I was 15 , I dreamt of being a fashion icon and an actress . And right now , at this stage of my life , I am not just dreaming . But I am at the peak of achieving my goal . Of implementing on my dreams.

Now when I look back at my life , I see how much it has changed since then. Now I am strong , I am not insecure , I am confident , I am proud . Back then , I was a weakling , insecure , ......pathetic . Well , I think I still AM pathetic because that's my name .

That's my identity . That my personality . That's who I am . Neither my brother , nor my mother have understood to this day that what made me pathetic ? And I know they will never understand either . This was just between me and that shit of an excuse for a father .

The show has started . All 3 of us , I , Emily and Logan were standing some hours ago in the X factor house . Praying for each other , consoling each other . Huh , yeah right ,more like praying for ourselves . Nobody today cares whether he/she is friend or not . What we all care for is winning . Winning is everything .

Not only for me , but for everybody . But still , I didn't expect Emily to stoop down to this level to win . Not at all . I thought we were best friends . Sure with a little competition between us , but nevertheless we were bestiez . Oh , how wrong I was .

Now here I am standing like a complete dumbass , whereas there is Emily on the stage performing the song which I was supposed to perform . Yeah , she stole my song . Not very original is it ? Happens everyday in a movie , book , etc . But come and be in my position . I am standing here helplessly , not sure what to do , while my song is being performed by my "best friend " .

Simon and Logan knew I was going to perform "When I look at you" , but even they can't do anything . It's the rule , the participant can perform any song they want . Logan  is here right standing by me , with the same look of shock as on my face .

"H-how can s-she do this t-to me ?" I asked while tears were freely falling from my face .

"I don't know . She stabbed you . Your best friend back-stabbed you" Logan said with hurt clearly on his face too.

"What will I do now ? All my hardwork , my everything has gone to waste . EVERY FUCKING THING " I yelled at particularly no one .

"Hey relax now . Pathy,let Emily do whatever she wants . She is a cheating bitch . Cheaters never win . You have the real talent , show it . Let that song go to hell . Sing from you heart . That one song , that you know will be excellent no matter whether you have practiced it or not" Logan said with a smile .

He calmed me , everything about him calmed me .His voice , his touch. His everything soothed me . He was my real friend . You can never trust someone , I have clearly learnt that lesson , and maybe my walls will be strong and up now . But Logan always managed to let those guards and walls down . He was always there whenever I was in a need of friend .

" I have got it" I nodded and smiled back at Logan . While Emily was performing , Simon clearly had a angry and  shocking look on his face . But his job is to judge the song sung by the participant . And I know he has no say in this .