Miss Pathetic

~33~ And Then

"Calm the hell down, woman! You are giving me a heart attack!" Bel screamed and I tried to lower it down. But I couldn't, I really couldn't. I don't have time for calming down! This is MAJOR. I have to be ready.

"Oh god, your voice really has gone up a few pitches since you have returned from the tour." Bel shook her head. It's true. It's been around a week now since we have come back to London, and honestly, I am loving it right now at home. We have a break of three months so I am trying to make the best out of them. I'll concentrate more on my music in these months and try to improve more. After recently talking to Simon, I finally realized that yes, being an opening act for one direction surely gave me an unforgettable experience, a taste of what its like to be that famous and what-not. But at the same time, in these past few months, except for releasing my single and music video, I haven't done a lot of work on myself. I have to come up with a whole new album ! Then, on whatever number it debuts, will decide if I am ready for my own shows or not. It's quite a long procedure. And however I had strayed away from my goals when on tour with one direction, I'm starting to concentrate on them more from now on.

Anyways, right getting back to getting ready. The major thing is... that I, Pathy Campbell, have a date!

It happened just two days ago. And it was not romantic, I warn you. But it was the best phone call of my life for me. It went something like this,

"Hey, Pathy ?" Louis' voice rung out.

"Yeah Louis ? What's up ?" I asked, I was kind of busy in some stuff.

"Uh, meet me tomorrow, I'll pick you up at 6."

"Wha-"

"In the morning. Wear something casual. Even Pajamas would work. Don't say you can't come. And if you really can't. Then just text me. I'll be waiting for you. Bye"

"LOU-"

And then all I heard was the hang up sound of my phone. That is how our conversation went, more like one-sided conversation. But I found his nervousness extremely cute.

Louis told me to wear something casual. Okay, I can do that. But I have no idea what he is going to do. I mean, first of all, who sets up a date at freaking 6 a.m? Apparently Louis Tomlinson does, he's probably taking the new album "Made In The A.M" way too seriously.

And secondly, shouldn't he be enjoying his limited time with his family? He just spent months with me and now he gets so little time with his family. Why is he meeting up with me? Does he have anything important to tell me? Or maybe...he found someone else ? He wants to tell me that in the nicest possible way. Urgh, what can it be?

Stop thinking so much, jeez, you are gonna pass out at this rate.

My conscience yells at me and I frown. Suddenly, Bel waves her hand in front of me.

"Hello? Anyone there? Pathy, you still alive?" Bel laughs and I chuckle along.
"Sorry, I was just -"

"Self-doubting yourself again ? Feeling insecure ? Having suspicions on Louis ? Which one is it this time ?" Bel put her hand on her waist and glared at me.

I started playing with my necklace. I didn't want to admit it to her that all of them were true.

"Eh, Bel lets talk later about this. I'm getting late. Just tell me what to wear okay." I changed the topic, hoping she would get the hint and ignore it. Thankfully she did, and helped me get ready.

Since Louis told me to keep it casual and it would be cold in the morning , Bel picked out ripped skinny jeans and a cream colored loose sweater and some boots. It looked quite good. I also added a beanie since I loved them so much !